R0CKINJEN (r0ckinjen) wrote, @ 2003-12-28 21:36:00

oh the things in my head
i am home :sigh: it's good to be home. even though i only left for a couple of days.. it's nice. i spent time with the OTHER side (dad's side) of the family. naturally they are MORE fun, i mean wayy mre fun, simply because they are younger and i have people reletively my ages. i spent most of my time with michael or reading, or badgering my uncle gary. i love my cousin michael - we grew up together. have i mentioned this before? yeah, he understands we're a lot more alike than say.. lauren michelle and myself. he's a die hard lover of god. which is some good stuff, makes for good conversation. it's super awesome because not only is he strong in his faith, he's STUDYIED it so he's not just blowing hot air. always makes for a good time when you put numerous opinionated people in one house and stir. so we had a studied catholic (and by studied... he knows his junk), his not so studied but strong catholic father, my uncle gary.. he's a studied.. (something), i odn't know... we're not going to get into this. but i listened to some very good debates. props to mikey for totally holding his own.

i've gotta say, i'm a little disapointed in the way my younger cousins have turned out. 2 of 3 are very.. umm.. sassy to say the least. one, my dad's goddaughter (we are not catholic, they just dubbed us godparents), sassed my mother to no end. from what i hear, she's going to turn out quite the brat. that makes me so sad. like mother like daughter. well, i guess i have my relatives to show me how NOT to parent. if i never want kids like thiers, i can't ever parent like them. i'm learning by negative reinforcement. i suppose i'm going to have to be very proactive. hands on sort of parent - but not the ones like carol frisk who call rainbows teachers and harass. (yes, i've been on the recieving end of her badgering. not a fan) i'm going to say that my kids are NOT going to watch a lot of T.V especially violent material, they are going to have a wonderful jungle gym in the backyard for them to use their imaginations and exercise (many children lack both), and they will have been taught to write thier name, memorize their address, the ABC's, and various other things by the time they are 3 1/2 or 4. if not that, i will expect a lot of my children, as if you do not, and set low expectations, they will find it the norm and forever live just under the radar. i will never lie to my child. i will not lie by omission. even the santa clause deal is up in the air. did you know that my mother enver told me he was real? it was always some fantasy, never the truth. my mother said the reason why was because she enver wanted to lie. and that is a good thing. as obvious as this gets... and i hope you (or whoever reads this) will contemplate this: i will never say my child is BAD. never tell a child that they are bad. never ever ever do that. it's damaging. as quick as we are to say "BAD DOG" or something of that nature, we can just as quickly say that to our children. yes, so never say "you're a bad boy." if not for the sake of your child.... for me.

i have a soup kitchen thing tomorrow. we have to drive there ourselves, and i'm sure glad matt tomes said he'd go with me! so i'm picking him up at 7:45 (ouch) we'll arrive around 8:30 and then boogie till 11 come ohme and have an optional taco bell break (as a matt tomes tribute). best budness here we come.

someone is sneezing upstairs. i wonder who it is. alias wasn't on tongith. sadness.

i have been thinking and i need to write down all the books that i have read. i'm debating whether to write down ALL of the books or just those of my highschool career. it would be handy and then i hope to jog my memory of those i would like to read again. so far this year as in my 12th year of school i have read the following:

poisionwood bible - b. kingsolver
the center of everything -
parts of huck finn - m. twain
parts of zen and the art .... - (but i don't think i got beyond the 2 chapter)
the russian debutante's handbook - g. shveltlsivw
nickel and dimed - b. erhenrich (sp)
1984 - g. orwell
the princess diaries vol III - m. cabot
the nanny diaries -
in her shoes - j. weiner
the alchemist - p. coehlo
harry potter vol V - j.k. rowling
chocolat - j. harris
the perks of being a wallflower - s. chbosky

to read as they are in my posession from christmas : mere christianity, the best american nonrequired reading 2003, bridget jones' diary
to buy and read: the great gatsby, the entire book list as cited on a previous journal entry, the entire harry potter series (save vol V) in hardback, (hmm it always seems that there are so many when i go to b&n.. but i cant think) OHOHOHOHOHOHO i NEEED the anne geddes photogrpahy book - her new one.
to RE-read: classics such as: to kill a mockingbird, the catcher in the rye, a separate peace,

TO BE CONTINUED