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You're looking skinny Like a model with your eyes All painted black Just keep going to the bathroom, Always say you'll be right back. Well, it takes one to know one, Kid I think you've got it bad But what's so easy in the evening By the morning's such a drag. I got a flask inside my pocket, We can share it on the train And if you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same. Well we might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain. But what was normal in the evenin', By the mornin' seems insane. You're just a waste of a song. You're a simple regret. I thought I knew who you were, but watch how fast I forget. You wore your prettiest dress, but there's a mess in your head. They say old habits die hard. I say they're better off dead, cause you were bitter and cold, but still you burned me alive. You held the match to my skin and poured the fuel on the fire. You're not my favorite mistake. You're just a simple regret. I though I knew who you were, but watch how fast and watch how well I forget you'll hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things, and crawl back into bed and dream of a time when your heart was open wide and you loved things just because. you'll fight and you'll make it through. you'll fake it if you have to. and you'll show up to work with a smile. and you'll be better, you'll be smarter. more grown up and a better daughter or son. and a real good friend. and you'll be awake, you'll be alert. you'll be positive though it hurts. and you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends, and you'll be a real good listener. you'll be honest. you'll be brave. you'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful. you'll be happy. Yeah I remember - I remember everything - The haircuts, the dollar movies. We used to sneak a six pack in your bag, and wait for a girl to scream or a car to crash so we could crack open our cans. Or the the time you shaved my head in the front yard; a passerby stopped to take a picture - we ended up in the paper. And now you want to leave? Well, maybe I forgot a couple things, it doesn't mean I don't remember how it feels when you're laying naked next to me. Valentine, I want to feel your hips pressed up against mine. We'll push into each other - love's alive. It might be fleeting, but it's ours and it's tonight. . . so won't you reconsider love-lost lives? You might be lonely, but I'm still by your side. You might have to leave, but not tonight ''This is what I know about love. That it is tested every day, and what is not renewed is lost. One either chooses to care more or to care less. Once the choice is to care less, then there is no stopping the momentum of goodbye.'' The superhero, is dying in this show. There's a million reasons, Why I don't want us to be just real good friends. Because real good friends, share stories of lovers and 1 night stands. And right now, I can't take being another shoulder to cry on. Because for once in my life, you actually tried to comprehend, The pain that I felt. And you know well, sometimes, if things dont work out the way you planned, You either have a bad case of bad planning, or your agenda is all wrong. Just think, If it's meant to be, It will be. And if it's not, Then I guess you've got a loaded gun and a pen to spill the guts. And when nothing is going great, You write about it. Because that's the only time you can really relate That was when you met that guy You ignored me then and you told me lies All of the nights, I sit on my ass wasting all my time And I can't seem to bare, that you don't care Sometimes the inspiration never comes. When all you want is someone to realize your depression. When all you want is someone to say that they care. The sun can be shining but you don't see it. And the love can be there but you don't feel it. Sometimes the inspiration never comes. and the ransom for your joy is just too much. And to show your face means they might judge. They always judge. When all you want is the will to get out of bed. When all you want is some understanding. So I guess I'll cut my losses Cause i've lost a lot I guess I'll quit complaining And I'll start walking it off Because there is no point in living In a past with that unhappiness Consider it a promise we both broke Consider it mistake on both our parts So go on, love Leave while there's still hope for escape. Gotta take what you can these days. There's so much ahead, and so much regret. I know what you want to say I know it but can't help feeling differently. I loved you, and I should have said it. But tell me, Just what has it ever meant? She's much prettier than I'll ever be. Perfection at its best Just when I thought I was beginning to look decent Find beauty in this fucking breakdown Chapped lips covered in blue, green eyes laced in red This is all I have for you. You're right. It's not me, it's her A gorgeous face upon a flawless body I'm not even second best walking away again seems like I know the back of your head better than the front but hey you don't see me stopping you not a word out of my mouth this time just walk away you don't see me stopping you 'cause I've got better things to do today you can just keep on walking looking smaller from my window 'cause it don't hold the same as it used to you think I'm happy with the lies that you feed me? I'm unaware about the way you mistreat me? I think you underestimated our situation all I had to give you took, but it's not enough. all that I could be, I was, but still you need more. look a little closer, and maybe you'll see... that it was you who wasn't good enough for me. are you sure you want to undulge in that last peice of cake, must you count your calories? Why do you even bother in eating when you're just going to end up in the second floor bathroom 9th period. And your cuts.. they turn into scabs and then into scars. What's the point of that anway? You will just reopen those scars. When you give yourself to anyone who says they love you, does it help you sleep at night? Are you content with knowing your mother has given up on you years ago, and your father doesn't even know you exist. Will getting another tattoo of your favorite fucked up lyric make all the pain go away, dollface? Are you insecure? and i hope someday you'll find out exactly what it feels like to hold the one you love, as he slams the knife straight into your back, and he'll laugh, while you gasp for air, he'll leave you there to die slowly. But it's quite sad when your friends don't care at all and your parents have to pay someone to listen to you because no one you love takes the time to care at all and they don't realize how much it hurts. Please don't Wake me 'til the morning after I'm so tired, there has got to be an end To the pain I feel when I'm awake and alive, alive, alive Alive and I'm dreaming... And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb Looking for a little hope Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine, And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope I said, 'Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified Come on put a little love here in my void,' he said 'It's all in your head,' and I said, 'So's everything' But he didn't get it I thought he was a man But he was just a little boy Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills 'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love fuck my face, fuck my name they are brief & false advertisements for a soul, i don't have something true i have lacked I said, "that boy's handsome" and a little bit of me wanted to be beautiful- she said, "It's hard to look in the mirror these days when everyone has everything you'd rather be." There's just something about his smile He looks so nice, I wish I had friends like that They'd always be there for me, I wouldn't look bad They wouldn't talk behind my back. Her shirts get lower as her pants get tighter. She can't help but throw herself into the arms of any guy that gives her the time of day. She has the ability to fake everything behind a smile. She forgets everything, drinks enough to relax. She surrounds herself with people she calls friends and pretends that she's oblivious to the things they whisper behind her back. She acts like nothing bothers her and holds her head up high. She throws herself into novels so she can pretend she's someone else. She cries herself to sleep while her memories play like nightmares. every morning she wakes up to the same song and masks on the same layer of makeup. and everything repeats itself. She's hit rock bottom I don't wanna get inside your mind or your pants I don't wanna waste my time with love and romance I want my next-ex-boyfriend, my next-ex-boyfriend I don't want the fairy tale and I don't want the boy from hell And I don't want to spend the time And I dont need no valentine I never promised you a ray of light I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday I'll give you everything I have - the good, the bad Why do you put me on a pedastal I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below So help me down you've got it wrong I don't belong there One thing is clear I wear a halo, I wear a halo when you look at me, But standing from here, you wouldn't say so You wouldn't say so if you were me and I, I just wanna love you, oh, oh, I I just wanna love you I always said that I would make mistakes I'm only human and that's my saving grace I"ll fall as hard as I try so don't be blinded See me as I really am I have flaws and sometimes I even sin So pull me from that pedastal, I don't belong there I start to feel like I can't maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. And I wish I knew what was wrong. Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is. I don't know. Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?... I don't know the answer, I know only that I can't. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I've had it. I am so tired. I am sixteen and I am already exhausted. if they tell you that she died of sleeping pills, you must know that she died of wasting grief, of a slow bleeding at the soul It was easy to wish to let go of the torture and the heartbreak and the missing of him. it seemed easy at least. But there was a catch to. To let go of the pain she had to give up on the other parts to: the feeling of being loved. The feeling of being wanted and even needed. The way he looked at her and touched her. The way her name sounded when he said it Shit! Nothing makes sense, so I won't think about it. I'll go with the ignorance. Eat, sleep, fuck and flee; in four words, that's me. I am full of indifference. What do the old people teach us but how to die and what do those hissy fits teach you except how to cry, pussy, cry? Yeah the futile, the futile, it outweighs the beautiful. It's sadder than the saddest movie I ever saw But without the beauty So I stopped watching I stopped caring I've lost all interest And I stopped wearing These plastic smiles I've washed my hands clean Forget that you Forgot about me (So say goodbye) to the vows you take (And say goodbye) to the life you make (And say goodbye) to the heart you break And all the cyanide you drank. (And say goodbye) to the last parade (And walk away) from the choice you made (And say goodnight) to the hearts you break And all the cyanide you drank. after a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesnt mean leaning and company doesnt mean security and you begin to learn that kisses arent contracts and presents arent promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child and you learn to build all your roads on today, because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight after a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to give you flowers. and you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong and you really do have worth..and you learn and learn with every goodbye you learn.. you say you don't see any part of me to love in all this mess. See the strange girl talking to her shadow She's got a secret to tell Her imaginary friend knows everything Don't let her go out She says they won't believe you You don't know what you're talking about Doesn't sit still, doesn't look well Give her something, make it chemical chemical You'll get use to cranial niches Smoothes out neuro-tramsmitted glitches You'll feel better when you cannot feel We'll have such a fabulous time Almost imitate a normal life You'll feel better when you cannot feel Forgive, sounds good Forget, I’m not sure I could They say time heals everything But I’m still waiting I’m through with doubt There’s nothing left for me to figure out I’ve paid a price And I’ll keep paying I’m not ready to make nice I’m not ready to back down I’m still mad as hell and I don’t have time to go round and round and round It’s too late to make it right I probably wouldn’t if I could ‘Cause I’m mad as hell Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should I know you said Can’t you just get over it It turned my whole world around And I kind of like it Hello, I'm neurotic Creating problems that don't exist Don't believe me when I say it's alright Let's go to my apartment We'll pull the sheets up over our heads Forget all reasons to go outside Beats pulse, they're automatic Locked inside of my apartment Make confessions with the television on I'm fine What do you do when your angels Have all flown away? There's an ache through my body That just won't go away Here's a picture that we took last fall See there you haven't aged at all But you, have a smile I haven't seen around Lately you're as dark as this town And I know it seems like nothing changes Days go by and we just age Well, killing time can feel so right In your bedroom without the lights Let's get old together Make promises and lie but never Let this city get the best of us Grow apart from the things we love So whisper and tell me where I went wrong Tell me why everything around you lost its shine Why nothing glows Let's get out of this mess No one will even know we left No use on dwelling on the thing you'll soon forget
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