bitch fest 2003
why are my nerves so fucking short lately..like people are really aggravating me and annoying me..and instead of taking the time to work things out i just get them out of my life and fast..it's kind of like i don't need NEW friends in my life when all they're going to do is add stress and frustration. i don't call people every day, i don't hang out with you all the time..i'm always here for you, i always will be here for you if you're my friend..i'd jump over the moon for you..but i can't tolerate someone smothering me and getting mad cause they aren't the center of my world..i am the center of my own world...i have to make myself happy and do me...i can't worry about making you happy all the time if i can't even make myself happy..man people are really frustrating me..if i say i'm going to hang out with you, or give you a ride or whatever..I"M GOING TO FUCKING DO IT..do not threaten me and say if youdon't, don't talk to me anymore..cause i'll do whatever it is i'm supposed to do..but i'm not talking to you again..i don't need that in my life..anyone can give me grief...it's people that don't that are special and i keep around..so fuck you people that are getting on my nerves..
also stop acting like you're in high school people..especially if you're 26. i'm dating this guy tom..strictly dating cause niether one of us wants anything more..he just got divorces, he's 28 and he has 3 kids...so yeah basically we're enjoying each other and not being with anyone else but we're hanging cause we don't feel the pressure of going steady, if you will...but we work together and there's this guy who really likes me..and his boy is friends with toma nd this boy...so he is in both of their ears saying opposite shit..he told tom just ot chill and let chriss kick it to me and see what i do..what i choose..then he tells chris to go for it and get me and fuck tom..then he goes to me and tells me how shitty he thinks tom is for me and i should go for chris and THEN me, him, his girl, and tom go for drinks and he knows it's just us and he apparently tried to call chris and have him come to the bar..now through this everyone knows i'm dating tom so chris is just laying low..but this kid is 25 and trying to start shit..it's stupid..i just want to have my good fuck and be with tom...drama is a muthafucker at the job man...it's getting not even worth it...i mean i am a flirt..and when i'm at work i basically have to tuck my tail in between my legs cause of all the shit talkers around...shady people...it's stressful.
and another thing..i'm a server at a restaurant..when we're out of shit..my guests do not want to hear that we did 6000 profit today and that's why we're out of lasagna cause we were too busy..they don't give a fuck if veal is backordered or if someone forgot to order ranch dressing..and thye sure as hell don't want to hear someone burnt all the bread and now it's proofing..they don't fucking care, they want what they want when they want it..and they should, that's why you go to a restaurant. if the kitchen fucks up..they're still getting paid by the hour...if they take 30 min for an app..or run out of foccacia rolls for the sandwiches...and just put it on a hero without asking..THAT COMES OUT OF MY FUCKING TIP...you still get paid..i don't..so unless you want us to start docking your fucking pay..order the shit you're supposed to..get the restaurant in order, and stop fucking up my orders...if i fuck up, which i do i'm not perfect..at least i'm losing my own money..it's my own fault i'm getting a shitty tip.. so don't even say "you fuck up too you're not perfect" no i'm not and niether are you..and i understand that..but some of you are FAR from fucking perfect and it's the same shit all the time..and I'M PAYING FOR IT..and that's frustrating when you should make 100 bucks but because you're out of half the shit, then the tickets take forever, then the food is fucked up, then the manager is in a pissy mood so he won't go speak to your pissed off table...there's not much you can do to make the guest leave satisfied.
i'm glad i vented that. feels nice
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