| Current mood: |  confused |
| Current music: | jason mraz- you and i both |
a miracle happened to me. oh well.. sort of miracle. remember HIM? yea. he's back in my life, as something more than a friend. im sitting on chads bed typing all this out tho its like late already.
ok, to get the story going, i sent him and my sec school senior this cute goodnight message (at about 11pm++) since they sent me one earlier on. at abround 2am i awoke to find that HE replied me, saying stuff like he missed me and 'sweetie' and stuff like that. i was pleasantly shocked i suppose. then as we exchanged more texts, he was starting to sound drunk, saying stuff like 'i wished you were mine instead'.. by then i was totally shell-shocked alredy. i mean, he's got a girlfriend! then just now i text him asking him what was last night's blabbering all about and i asked if he was drunk/mad/whatever. so it appeared that he was neither of the three. he said he liked me. oh wow... total miracle. oh yeah. i told him that if he didn't have any more feeling for his girlf then tell her, don't lead her on. i mean, i didnt say that to make him breakup with her (i'd feel totally horrible about it) but rather i didnt want him to lead her on. yeah.. then soon after he went to sleep, not before messaging me telling me that he'd think of me and 'nite sweet'. i died.
i mean... of course im happy, but quite confused at the same time. why did he tell me that after so long? was he thinking of me since before or did he just happen to realise that he's got feelings for me only recently? and im dying to ask him what makes him think that i should believe what he says? sighs.. so many unanswered questions. exams are coming and great- just the distraction that i need... everytime the exams are coming this HAS to happen.
oh well.. guess i'll just wait and see how it goes. really dont want to be a bitch and intrude in a perfectly healthy relationship. i mean... i understand how the poor girl must feel, but surely the emotional turmoil i went through before was more than hers?
sealed with a liverpool (smoochy smoochy) kiss
-cher-
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