Chris (prob_dist) wrote, @ 2005-11-27 09:13:00

my time...
my time in england has been interesting so far. it has probably been one of the hardest things in my life. i am still really struggling with the students. it's so frustrating to try to teach a lesson and have very few students actually pay attention. what am i supposed to do? i thought the first term was going to be the worst... but i have to say that this term has been even more difficult. i have to admit that i am pondering not coming back after christmas. what will i do? i have no idea... but this experience has really turned me off teaching. i don't know if i could ever step back into the classroom (which is sad, because it can be so rewarding). hmm... only 3 weeks left until i go home. i'm excited about that. very excited. just to be back in the familar. i hope that i have grown during this time... i'm sure that i have... somehow, someway. i just hate having a job that i dread going to everyday. i have enjoyed the country... but even so... i think that the novelty has worn off for me. this has been entirely too negative. i have to believe that God has a plan for me and that there is a reason for all of this.

3 weeks left...

the_hard_way 2005-11-27 23:51 (link)

Chris, I am sorry you are not enjoying your work. Teaching must be discouraging for anyone. Who couldn't feel somewhat badly about their students not listening. I imagine myself feeling crumby in that situation too. But I have a feeling that when you come home to the familiar, as good as it will be, you will be able to see your situation outside of its context for a bit, and you will realize how much you've grown in the last few months. It is impossible not to have grown. I'm proud of you, that you took the leap across the pond and put yourself into uncertainty. You've had other, more positive experiences teaching/leading, right? Like with the Mexican camp kids? Maybe British public school kids are just a crazy bunch...I don't know. Anyway... I hope we can hang out when you come home. Let me know your schedule. Peace, Tom (Reply to this) (Thread)