clock strikes upon the hour (mypain) wrote in poeticdevice, @ 2003-10-25 18:07:00

Current mood:	hopeful
Current music:	lost&found|taking back sunday

Falling
i keep falling
not knowing where ill land
i keep falling
searching for a helping hand
it doesnt make sense anymore;
you're getting somewhere,
im not.
maybe it's pointless
it might just be some
simple, selfish reverie.
they say the falling sensation
happens during stage two of sleep
so maybe im in a nightmare.
it's none of your business anyway,
why i feel or live this way
im undecided, confused
i guess it's really not your problem.
&hey, no one knows
what im talking about.

here is a lil piece of what i have eliesness 2003-10-28 07:00 (link)

a lil something i wrote to the guy i like...ive liked him for over a year.. I’ve liked u since the first day I saw u And dreamed for us to be together I got to be Ur friend We were close And I thought my dream would come true Let u meet my best friend Next thing I know u hate my guts And want me dead I cried for days My dreams were shattered I couldn’t get over the fact I lost u And had someone who I thought was my friend Betray me more then ever I hurt more then u could imagine I thought it was the end of the world I came close to wanting to die Then you and that so called friend Started to ruinin my life I was scared to walk to the bus stop From the threats from the night before I was scared to walk the school grounds Then they got more intense You and her took it too far My family took control I took control Now we are supposedly friends I’m still scared u’ll turn Ur back again And hurt me even more I don’t think I could make it Alive through that again The pain, the depression, the tears But my best friend tells me Ur different That you’ve changed I trust her with my life So I’m giving u another chance I even went out on a limb And told u I still care and like you My heart acts like u never did those terrible things That everything is just like before and wants u more then ever That want is taking me over. I need to react to it soon I either ask u out or move on And I’ve tried moving on doesn’t work to well I always end back up to wanting u So I’m turning to you now. What should I do? Where should I turn? Will there ever be an us I know u said u don’t know if u like me But if u almost asked me out last year I assume u liked me then I’m still the same little old me So please help me answer all these questions Before I lose it. (Reply to this) (Thread)