| Current mood: |  distressed |
| Current music: | radiohead-karma police |
i should be doing a million things right now
yeah, it's been a while since I updated... I just don't feel comfortable typing all that I feel out in the open, for all you to see, and I see no point in juss expressing some of it, so I think I’m going to go back to my personal journals, but I’ll keep updating, for a while at least...
I’ve been really unfocused lately, my allergies suck, I cant read(something I truly love, it helps me escape my problems, and at times helps put things in perspective)I’m dong poorly in school because I juss can't deal with it anymore. I don't feel as close to my friends. It feels as if all that used to be important in my life is drifting away from me and unwillingly too,
I’ve been feeling pretty good for a while now (if you don't no me, I’m always up in down in my moods, in the beginning of the year I was really depressed) but I’ve juss had a lack of feeling lately, I’ve tried to keep my mood up, put on a happy face, try to...be normal I guess...but it's juss stopped working, I have constant headache.
I juss don't know what to do, should I start trying again in school n bring up my grades, should I not care? I'm so tried, I juss wanna sleep all the time, and I'm always dizzy, I almost fainted during choir rehearsal about a week ago, I came home from school today because I felt like crap, I’m shaky and nervous, I juss wanna curl up in my bed and sleep, why did things change all of a sudden? I WAS FINE!! I was actually ok for a period of time in my life; I have nothing to be complaining about! I love my family, yeah they're a pain in the ass sometimes, but I’m getting along with them better, me and my sister got close, my brother and I get along, they're great, I don't know what I’d do without them! I have good friends, I have pple I can trust, school WAS going good, my GPA was up to a 3.1 that’s higher then I thought I could get!
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