Tani Tachibana Izaki (paradox7) wrote, @ 2004-03-04 19:45:00

Current mood:

disappointed

I don't feel I'm satissfied with anything anymore ;___; Bah.. I even get pissed at my own friends.. or who I thought are my friends.. no, in case you're wondering, nothing happened between me and anybody :P It's just that, I feel like when I see certain people, it pisses me off -.- I'm not trying to bitch anybody out, and I won't.. so that's why I just keep it to myself. But then again, I've been keeping this to myself for almost a year now and it's driving me nuts.

Oh well, life is not perfect. I feel so distant with my own friends.. mostly because they are busy or have a life (and I don't) or just forget about me. Even real life friends are like that too. I dunno -.- Currently some of my LJ friends are pissing me off.. and no, I won't tell who even if you threat to kill me. Oh who gives a fuck anyways. Blah. I've never had any luck with friends anyways. Most of them took advantage of me. Real life friends that is.

Anyways, back to my happy self. I"m halfway through the Battle Royale novel. I really wanna finish it so I can start reading any unfinished books I have. Yes, that includes 'Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix"... *ashamed* LOL. Ooooh somehow I'm in the mood to read a romance book.

I'm watching Save the last dance right now and one of the soundtracks in it reminds me of college.. during the formal night.. Awwww.. the night when I knew Kiren and Dinesh as the charming MC... the night when Kiren gave me two hugs.. and the night when Alex, my crush gave me a cigarette (NO, I DON'T SMOKE.. it was just simply to make me warm .. and believe it or not, it worked.. I stopped shivering after :P) But then it also reminded me how college sucked big time. How Kiren and Dinesh turned out to be big jerks. Assholes. Gah -.- This is so depressing.

	Hello (Anonymous) 2004-03-04 07:21 (link)
	Hi this is Zhin here. Was lookin up some stuff about cosplay on google and somehow got to your blog. Awesome stuff. I'm also Malaysian and into J-Rock a lot. Now I'm livin at California. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	videl_chan 2004-03-04 21:58 (link)
	*hugs* awww....i'm still here for you... aim sucks...i've been trying to login but still cannot... >.<;;; ano... i think i know that guy...*points at zhin* (Reply to this) (Thread)