|Current mood:|| drained|
|Current music:||None (yes, nothing, nada, zilch - I really am that down)|
You're everywhere and nowhere, baby, that's where you're at (from Hi Ho Silver Lining by Jeff Beck)
Well, here I am, the elusive, lesser spotted Me feeling incredibly drained after a week of not a lot happening.
I don't know what's up with me right now. I just can't seem to be totally awake at any point during the day. I spend most of my day yawning, which must make the kids at work feel incredibly important!
Maybe it's the weather and the season. I don't cope well with these dark nights and now it's gotten all wet and windy it's even worse. I swear I was in the middle of a tornado today. One minute it was just cloudy and then all of a sudden this wall of wind and water hit the windows of the classroom I was in causing the windows to rattle in their frames. The kids freaked out and were hiding under the tables while we had to pull the braver kids away from the window because we thought they were going to blow in. It swirled around the wall and down the playing field, taking the first layer of wood off another classrooms door. And then it was gone. I can't find anything in any news reports or weather reports about any freak weather happening in my area but it did and it's was really weird.
Jay and I have to move out of our house. Maybe that's making me feel so low too. We knew our contract was up for renewal and were planning on staying on for another 6 months when the letter came through to let us know we could agree a new tenancy... But the rent was going up. We're at the limit of our budget now so we can't afford it. Now I spend most evenings looking for somewhere else to live and hoping they don't get snapped up before January because we're tied up here until then and need the deposit from this place to put on a new place... Rubbish.
I just don't understand where time is going at the moment. The next month or so is so full of happenings. I've got 4 birthdays (not mine, obviously, that would be greedy) and all the Christmas shennanigans at work. I've been roped into doing the sound for the school Christmas performance for the 2nd year running so I have to start working on that and we've got a make and do Christmas craft day where I'm organising an activity and... No. I don't want to go on. It's all far too depressing. When do I get time to do what I want to do? And why should I have to spend my spare time when I'm not having to be Christmas jolly doing Christmas jolly things like buying people presents and... Stuff. I can feel a grr coming on...
I'm sure I must have more to talk about. Something good even. I just can't think. Thinking takes too much effort.
Sigh. What a depressing blog. I think I'll leave it here and see what I can do some other day.
(Post a new comment)
Yeah! I have been very drained and tired lately as well. And also not doing much. I've been taking a nap almost everyday, or at least have felt like taking a nap everyday. And I NEVER take naps. Well, I guess I can't say that anymore, but I never used to.|
(Reply to this) (Thread)
(Post a new comment)