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Still alot to say
i still have tons of feelings about many things but i really have not gotten them all together enough to write an entry. lately i have been really depressed, just about tons of shit, and i have been angry too. its hard if u knew exactly everything i was going through, or at least if u know some stuff and took a min. to look at it from my POV.
so the last entry i wrote was when i was deciding to be pissed off at the world. this is all fine and good and i admit needs to be done every once in a while but i have been thinking moree. yes i am pissed at alot of stuff but i can not only be mad. there are people that love me and there are people that like me as a friend also.
something i need to say. i really don't feel like getting into "blurty wars" with kelly. one thing that i have not pointed out before at all. kelly never did wrong by me, all she ever did was like me. i am sorry for what happened between us, but i don't think anything could be done. i was very unclear, or maybe just gave the wrong impression in my last blurty. I felt like i had to move on from Dom yes, but i didn't just date her becuase i had to find someone to date. moving on is just getting over her. i did not try and use kelly to do this. i just thought kelly was an awesome friend and that i wanted to hang out with her. it just came about that we started to date and then it didn't work. my mentality was not, let me find someone else right this second, it was more of trying to be done with one stage of my life i guess u could say.
if this all seems random it is because i have been up since three and it is 11:30 right now, and i have done over 10 hours of driving today, 8 being in a row. i need sleep and i hope this clears alittle something up until i have time to write more.
-fuck
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(Anonymous)
2004-04-19 02:10
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..i wonder..
will the bullsh*t ever cease?
only time will tell.
..but in all likelihood, no.(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2004-04-19 20:38
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nick, nick, nick...i just for the life of me can not understand sometimes what you mean when you say things. i think in your mind you are trying to make it seem like you didn't really have feelings for kelly, maybe to make yourself feel better? Honestly, I don't know. But I do however remember how much you liked her. I will never forget that time we got a hotel room and you got piss ass drunk and you said all the stuff that you said. Nick, people just don't say those things, inside you felt something. And it's cool if you stopped feeling that way, or got confused or what have you, but don't forget the past, learn from it ;)
spanda
p.s. i am totally not trying to start anything, i just wanted to say that because you sometimes loose touch with reality, hell we all do. :)(Reply to this) (Thread) |
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(Anonymous)
2004-04-20 07:48
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"...people just don't say those things..."
really? then why is it that people tend to whisper sweet nothing's into the ear of the opposite sex when they're just trying to get a piece? i'm not saying he didn't indeed have feelings for her and that he was just trying to fuck her, i'm just amused at the wording and the way you chose to put out your thoughts.
-::lizzie::-
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2004-04-21 01:02
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alright, fair enough. i think she meant good hearted people don't just say those things, and this man definitely fits under that category (good hearted, that is). (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread) |
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