j05h (offroadking) wrote, @ 2004-01-09 18:51:00

Current mood:	crappy
Current music:	against forgetting

lonely
lonely
so alone
no one to talk to...
no one to help me....
no one now...
no one there...
why make a change now....


a little something i wrote. i am still depressed dunno why i wanna say cuz i feel alone hence the name of what i wrote. but it is hard to say what more do i need i am supposed to be happy but i guess not. still cant figure out what the problem is. if i knew what the problem was i would work on it but nope can't figure it out. we will see what happens in the future. thinkin of the future scares me also. i still am scared about growing up as i get older and see what lies ahead of me i wonder how i will turn out? there is so much to think about, life, school, a career, its scary. i have been thinking tooo much really. screw it whatever happens......... happens.

school begins monday, 13 hours man hopefully i dont fuck up. that is all i have to say on that subject.

hopefully gunna go bowling in a couple of hours. its a co-workers birthday and it would be kool if i showed up but who knows i feel shitty, i mean shitty. i woke up at 2 pm and was like WHoa! i had a headache from hell, i still do. dunno if i am going to go tonight hopefully i will make it out but if i dont i would still like to wish her happy b-day!

DDR ULTRAMIX!

j05h

cypherpunk 2004-01-10 03:24 (link)

my opinion on ur [loneliness]. I seriously think that its the fact that you [now] work alone. Its hard for anybody...nobody to keep you company or not much [at times] to keep you busy. sometimes what i do is pretend a girl is next to me and we make sweet love. no just playing. like something like that would ever happen!! anyways...when feeling down and have nothing to do...give somebody a call to keep u wasted..i mean company. other than that...ur future does scare you...i can see it in you. ur a puzzled person with unknowing ambitions. dont worry, shit will work out. except for me. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cypherpunk 2004-01-12 03:18 (link)
	ur a fucking dick sir. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offroadking 2004-01-12 20:27 (link)
	your not fuking helping man! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cypherpunk 2004-01-12 22:50 (link)
	"i said that so you could shut the fuck up!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	offroadking 2004-01-13 20:06 (link)
	no! no! i figured out why and now in the process of getting shite handled! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)