Neko X (neko_x) wrote, @ 2003-07-27 22:21:00

Current mood:	disappointed
Current music:	aeriths theme-FF7-nobuo uematsu

yay..another birthday..(cries)
im another year older, another year gone bye that hasnt really had any positive aspects on my life...its weird for the past 2 years everything has been totally downhill. and today is no exception..my so called girlfreind didnt take off work so we could be together so we get to spend 2 hours together tonight and shell be to tired to satisfy me anyway. what a shame...not even my ex called...i just get yelled at on her message board for makinga little joke about her layout. oh well..just another fucked up day. i did get a gameboy player for my gamecube..(thanks dad) a few sleeveless shirts....a TMNT shirt and a nintendo wristband, house of the dead 3, DOA volleyball , and goldmember. and i sit here and realize that i can say that i have only 2 freinds that care, and my father, my mother beleive it or not called me too...i didnt even think she rememberd or even had a clue how old i was..(well she didnt know how old) but its the thought that counts...my sister even called me...and its weird becasue im so used to having her around...especially to cheer me up on my birthday which has never ever gone right since my 18th. i wish myself a happy birthday and tonight when i am doing all the work pleasing HER instead of me..ill be thinking of someone who has always made my birthday bright even though she has never been there....oyasuminasai robyn

Maa ne.... md 2003-07-28 17:14 (link)

Happy belated birthday, love. I am so sorry I didn't call you yesterday. I was so busy, I didn't even really see that fight on my tagboard until just his morning T_T Augh augh augh, I feel so bad. Hey, when I get some time later on next month, can I take you out for an afternoon? I really have no other way of making it up to you :/ Anyway, once again, hope your day didn't /totally/ suck ass. n_n -- with love, Robin (Reply to this) (Thread)

	hokuto 2003-07-29 02:25 (link)
	You have a girlfriend? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	and you are??? neko_x 2003-07-31 00:12 (link)
	um and YOU are??? ..and yes...sorta...buck fuddy??...um.....time taker?? um ...replacemnt? something to bide my time until things go my way and me and someone work out all the problems we had..which we were workin on. but things get in the way yadda yadda yadda...y dont beleive me? LMAO (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: and you are??? hokuto 2003-07-31 05:32 (link)
	..Mara. Charmed. Your message is pretty incoherent, but I think I get the impression that you are trying to say that once things go your way, Robin will be your girlfriend again? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: and you are??? neko_x 2003-07-31 06:43 (link)

maybe one day shell be mine again one day way in the future. but im not gonna hold my breath. i love that girl with everything i have dont get me wrong. but some things between us will never be able to be resolved no matter how hard we try. And well shes living her life and enjoying things how they are. Its my job to sit back and just be happy that shes happy. i want the best for that little ragamuffin. i had my chance. I blew it. but at least i left her in the hands of someone who can take good care of her. and for that im thankful. So um..where was i?? yes i hope that one day me and robyn could get back together...and yes i have a girlfreind...shes attractive on the outside..and well...a really really mean bitch when shes not being spoiled....lol....(ex. last night she yelled at me 4 times to turn on the "fucking fan" when she was sitting right next to it and im accross the room lying down)....i see NO logic in that....actually i have come to realize i think completely different from her and i think i only put up with her becasue i have no one else interested in me and finding a girlfreind with ANY of my hobbies, likes wants and needs are pretty few and far apart...where am i gonna find a hot girl who loves mega man and street fighter...lol...but anyways..i dont know if ANY of that made sense but i dont make alot of sense most of the time...jya na (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: and you are??? hokuto 2003-07-31 14:33 (link)

I'm glad that you understand that. She's a very precious person to me, and I don't want to see her get hurt anymore than she already has, so pardon me if I seem a bit cold to you. Plus her and her girlfriend are one of my favorite couples :p and I like them together a whole lot. Anyway, in my humble opinion, it's good for you not to be holding your breath any longer. Instead of calling your current girlfriend an inbetweener, you should dump her and start looking for someone new with a more rigid set of requirements; a person who'll be a keeper. Robin isn't the only cool chick on your island, I'm sure. :p You might not get laid for a while, but you're a man, you can take it. When you find a new girl who likes the same things you do, I wish you the best of luck in trying to make it work. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: and you are??? neko_x 2003-07-31 22:55 (link)

thanks??? um but i know robyns not the only kewl chick on the island. but she WAS the love of my life and is still very dear and precious to me as well. shes the only person who knows the real me. and about her and her girlfreind. yeah i cause alot of problems in that relationship..but im also the one who taught robyn how to love and wil always love her...and even if i dont hold my breath i hope one day shes mine again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)