Neko X (neko_x) wrote, @ 2003-05-06 18:32:00

Current mood:	impressed
Current music:	Look to the sky(true color extended mix)-Konamistyle

i cant beleive it..
did you ever feel as though you were cursed? that if some situation were to arise you would act a certain way.? Well i thought i was cursed..or doomed to never be able to control myself around a certain woman. And i always cried wolf i always said"no i wont try to fuck you..no we wont have sex, honest"....to no avail..and today..i actually stoped myself dead in my tracks stalled myself long enough to do the right thing. I am so very proud of myself..(yes I AM kicking myself in the ass seeing as the chick is hot and i LOVE I MEAN LOVE THIS GIRL) I guess it finally showed how much i loved her. Enough to break the mold. To do what was right and not to have her go meet her girlfreind and have her girlfreind smell me on her. I was ruining their relationship and i hope that i can someday stop sabotaging hers..because none of mine since her have ever been as good. Even though we tried and tried and everntually it was me that gave up..(even though i said i wouldnt) She needed me to move on for her to move on as well. And as i sit here and think about what i just did..even though i could have done it with more tact. I have finally proven that i can control myself so maybe we CAN be freinds and just hang out. So yes i do finally understand love...and as i love only so many people ...waht others say to me..and what they do...i know that some loves are fleeting...where as true love is unconditional and forever..even if that person is no longer yours.

	glass_wings 2003-05-11 01:12 (link)
	Oh,honey...I feel so sorry for you...;_; I hope you mend your realtionship thing or whatever... Uhm...I think this will make you feel better,and I'm sure you'll want to upload on or two of them as your default icon.I did not make it,but you should take one of them.It might suit you.O_o; http://www.livejournal.com/community/animeicons/639068.html (Reply to this) (Thread)