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Tuesday ... Track & Then Dunkin Donuts
OMG! i was in the worst mood when i woke up this morning!! My mom was yelling at me for being in a bad mood as if i purposely get into bad moods to ruin her day..Anyway this morning i had track again.. I am so dedicated. Ive been going every day like i should. I also kind of feel like a loser but thast alright. Right now im at danielle's house. I walked here in the rain but then .. like a fatass i stopped at Dunkin Donuts for breakfast/lunch and i bought myself a muffin(and one for danielle) and then I came back to Dani's. I feel gross now cuz i went and checked out the amount of calories and fat in a coffee cake muffin... 710 calories and 29 grams of fat. Someone shoot me now.. PLEASE!! Its horrible. From now on i am watching every tiny little morsel that enters my body and writing it down bc i absoloutley refuse to let myself become a sea mammal. Wow.. happy i got that out. I have a ton of exercise to do!! Ahh. I know i can do this!! I did it b4.. but i kind of killed myself doing it. Oh well.. ill be anorexic b4 ill be fat and i know that sounds like a really sick thing but it is def. my worst fear. Fat is like an evil thing that just consumes people and makes them depressed. However its better to be skinny and hungry I think. I mean tell me if this is a poor attitude but i cant stand myself for the way i ate this morning. No more food today. Just lots of water! No soda either. I made a whole list of what i can and can not eat and i am going to stick to it. I am really motivated bc danielle is doing it with me and she wont let me eat garbage .. theres no garbage to eat in my house anyway but I can easily go out and buy some which i def. wont be doing. Also no disgusting cookies to fatten my ass cuz i dont need them. Its just so ridiculously tempting during school. I guess i just wont bring $$$ to school and then it just wont be an issue. YES! i feel good about this now. I cant believe how fast the vacation is waning away!! Its horrible! Oh well. I still have math homework to do but i am quite lazy unfortunately and I just dont feel like doing it at all. Ill prob. end up doing it at lunch(while not eating) ! Ok i think ive written enough for today.. ive got diet research to do!! whoop whoop. Ill keep ya posted on how it goes.. Ciao for now
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