Two Hookers and an 8 Ball (mrsliljimmyurin) wrote, @ 2003-01-06 01:14:00

Current mood:

depressed

Tonite I went to the show. It was ok.. sorta. Some of the bands were bad, the others were decent. Saw a lot of people I knew, my head was hurting by the end of the night.

We went to dennys afterwards, i spent like 25 dollars on me and appetizers and part of ashlees meal. Thats a lot.

A lot of people from the show started showing up.... I hung out with them for a while, but something just..... snapped.

I like... suddenly just wanted to.. hit everyone that was there. I felt like standing up and just screaming at everyone. I dont know. I had to leave, left without saying bye to anyone, no one even noticed, why would they?

The whole ride home I was thinking horrible things. I dont know.... I havent felt suicidal in so long.... years at least. And there I was thinking about how no one would care if I was gone. I began to ache to cut myself. I want to cut myself again, its been years, and i ache to feel that burning pain.

I wont talk to anyone, ashlee isnt answering me, whatever. Fuck it im going to bed. I just dont give a shit right now.

	twiggette 2003-01-06 01:52 (link)
	eek. dont be sad. :< I was just startin to like ya. :D *liCk* (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: mrsliljimmyurin 2003-01-06 16:16 (link)
	Aww i will feel better in that case. And that icon you have is hot.... its all... black and green and silver. Aka... hot. *bite* (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_burden_ofme 2003-01-06 07:15 (link)
	:(----feel better--im here if you ever need to talk (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: mrsliljimmyurin 2003-01-06 16:12 (link)
	thanks, i feel a bit better... i might get pierced tonite... if someone will go with me I will. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)