{*its ok to be who you are,dont pretend to smile*} (morbidragdoll69) wrote, @ 2004-01-16 22:41:00

Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	the CD Nell burned for me

i have lost all will to live in this world anymore, i think i will shrivel up and die. my parents hate me and i hate them. i just want to die. school has become my only hope of getting out of this hell hole...here's something i wrote just now...


i hold the pills in my hand,
just two more and ill be gone.
Darkness will overcome me,
and i shall live no more.

When will this pain cease?
or will it ever?
I have no desire to live.
I have the need to bleed.

You say i have to stop,
but somehow i cant.
and I dont know why.

I raise the pills to my mouth,
but drop them on the floor.
I scream for you,
and you come to my side.

I've tried so many times,
but every time i've failed.
Maybe it's a sign,
maybe i'll prevail.

I don't know what to do,
i need someone like you.
Someone that i can talk to,
someone who understands.
Someone who doesnt get paid,
someone who actually cares.

You all want me to stop,
but i really don't think i can.
You say that i should,
but the thing is,
im not so sure i want to...
-mE-

^it doesnt rhyme, but hey, i like it....^

	no no no i love you fdont hate your life youaresolush 2004-01-17 16:29 (link)
	erin dont talk like that i love you so much and your life is not horrible you have your friends who love you and they will always be there for you i will always be here dont kill or cut your self please cuz i would cry an ocean if u died so please dont do something crazy liek that i lvoe you!!!! (Reply to this) (Thread)