Blake (mixednutz) wrote, @ 2004-11-25 11:07:00

Current mood:

amused

Denial...When People Don't Know They Have Issues
I just don't understand how a person can be so stubborn and blind that they pretend the person who hated them was their best friend.... Jason HATED Nicole -- why does she not see that? I guess she thinks that this is some contest between her and I as for who will "have him" when he wakes up, but guess what? I'm the one he LOVED. I know her desperate ass was in love with him, partly because he was one of the only guys that would talk to her (since she loves any guy that tells her hi). Does she not understand that he HATED her? Here we go, "Blake's lying; Jason didn't hate people" -- yes he did. He did not like her or any of HER friends, which weren't his. He told Amanda how much he hated her, he told Jessica how much he hated her, and he also told Crystal how much he hated her -- ask any of them his opinion on her, how she was "Blake's annoying friend that he had to put up with". He would tell me that all the time. I WAS the closest person to him, not Nicole, like she pretends to be. It's funny how she used to talk so bad about him when he was around ("Gawd, Jason is annoying me!"), and now that's he's temporarily gone, it's all, "He was my best friend..boo hoo hoo..." -- Yeah right. Stop fakin' the funk. He might have been YOUR best friend, but you were not HIS. It's also strange how Nicole dismisses Amanda, Jessica, and Felicia, the people who knew him LONGER and the people he liked MORE than her. She tried to keep him away from him I guess because she was so jealous of all of them. And Courtney, she too used to talk about how annoying he was, yet now he was her dear friend too. What the hell?! He was the kind of person who was never mean to anyone; he would always be nice to people, not matter HOW MUCH he despised them. People act like I'm making this up, but again, who was the closest person to him? Yes -- ME. I just wish I had some tangible proof of him telling me how he didn't like Nicole. Shit, the way he first met her was because he wanted to see "the fat bitch Blake didn't like" and he wanted to pick at her. Yeah, it's like that. Courtney was always, "the slutty girl that messed with Drew", Allie was "the lying bitch with poofy hair", and Rae Ann was...well, he never knew her, therefore she doesn't even qualify as a friend of his. I wish I had him saying all of this, but I would never save our IMs cuz I didn't want Nicole to take her nosy ass through my saved documents and find them. People can try to play off by saying, "Blake didn't even love him that much..." Well, I would sometimes say "Oh well I'm tired of him" just to see what Nicole would say, and then I would watch her try to move in on him and instigate a whole situation, just so they could get "closer." I knew what I was doing, and I knew what I saying. I loved him just as much as he loved me, and I still do. I'm gonna stay by him throughout this whole ordeal. I won't leave him. Ever.

I know what you mean leavingitbehind 2004-11-25 15:36 (link)

I have saved Im's between me and him saying that he didn't like her. Saying that if it weren't for you, Blake, that he wouldn't even talk to her. I have known that boy since we were in middle school. I have to go through my files and find those convo's but I'll send them to you when I do. I just thought I'd let you know that I do have them. I'm just so aggravated at this whole situation. It's like its all a contest to see who meant more to him. I know that you meant so much to him. He talked constantly about how much he loved you. Yeah ya'll did have your bad moments, and he talked about those to, but all the good outweighed the bad. I can understand that yeah, Nicole might be going through pain too, but it shouldn't be turning into this whole huge argument confrontation thing. Is it really worth it to fight over Nicole? Think about Jason.. If he meant as much to you Nicole, as you say he did and still does, then you wouldn't be fighting w/ his BOYFRIEND whom he loved and was SOOOO important to him. Think about that.. ~*~Crystal~*~ (Reply to this) (Thread)