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a new beginning
dear world,
Did u ever wake up one day and was just like... fuck this...im tired of being miserable, im tired of being sad and depressed...when theres shit i could do to make my life better... granted it may not happen overnight, however, if u believe u can do something or be something and u dont leave room for doubt or negative thoughts.. whose to say u cant do it? the way i c it is life is short.. to be plain with u, one day each of us will die, like it or not , if ur not ready to die.. too fucking bad. just think about that for a while and maybe the wheels in ur head wil start turning and u'll think wow im gunna die someday and all of this will be gone, all of the loved ones that surround u.. they will be taken away so why shouldnt u spend as much time as u can handle with them...also that hmm maybe i should be spending all of this time being miserable when i can achieve happiness in due time. i mean come on people why were we put on this earth if ur just gunna be miserable and not im not saying to go kill urself or nething to the negative effect what im saying is instead of crying alot, or even forwning alot and instead of being just plain miserable all the time why dont u grab by the balls(heh) whatever is making u so miserable and just say FUCK YOU... for example me,thats rite im gunna talk about myself once again,i always talk about myself...i mean this is MY blurty..neways what im convinced is the source of most of my miserableness is my weight... im just gunna say FUCK YOU to being overweight and start doing something about it instead of being so miserable i mean come on dont waste life.. am i right? i think so but so neways on to a fairly new subject..... i've been thinking about this and im convinced that im like a free spirit.. ok just hear me out.. i have no best friend( i have good friends but no ONE best friend. like the one u tell everything to and its just u 2 not like 3,4,or 5 of ya , ya knoe wht i mean), i dont have a boyfriend, i've certainly not gotta husband or kids or nething and in the future i will have all of things most likely, so how much time does one really have to be a free spirit... for most people ..not much....and on to another subject...WARNING:WHINING IS IN THE NEAR FUTURE.... ok i REALLY REALLY dont wanna go back to school errrrr i wish it was summer i knoe i sound like the typical kid but i reallllllllly dont wanna go back =( and i dont feel like going to upward bounddd im gunna miss all the friends cuz i'll b there and im gunna miss most of my summer butttt i mean its a good thing upward bound and no matter what i've just gotta stick with it no matter how much i may not want to i gotta stick with it. it kinda pisses me offf that like no1 reads/ com,ments in my blurty i mean i knoe stin did in my last one but i mean it makes me feel like no1 cares sometimes when i get low..i mean i knoe i dont comment that much in other peoples but im gunna try to more...eh i just realized i didnt tell yas about xmas... ok so on christmas eve steph came over and we were suppose to get this wedding pic of my grandparents blown up....turns out my brother had no money and that he couldnt find the pick so as a last minute thing i was i downstairs and i thought hmm what about that pic of me and brother as youngins that'd b cute so i ran upstairs and got it and me and steph went to cvs in nanticoke and got it blown up on the picture maker thingie and got it put in a frame and the gift would be from me since i was paying for it and what not flash forward to when my grandma opened it....she started cryen( my grandma never crys).. it was the cutest thing ever and i dont think i will ever forget it and the next day my pops told me that she was cryen that morning looking at it and he even had a tear in his eye. so that was about all that was memorable about my christmas welll cept that my pops was really miserable and like no1 wanted to be around him but hey i stilll love him i mean hes my pops no matter how nasty he can be, i really love my grandma alot no matter how much she hurts me when she says things about my appearance....neways soo my new years resolutions wil be up when i can collect my thoughts in that area
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 crayzeebabeeag
2004-01-02 13:13
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hey babe, im glad you're guna think more positive, life's too short to be negative and sad and angry all the time, trust me i know, and with the best friend thing, i've never had ya kno that one best friend who feels the same about you, it just doesnt seem to happen anymore, but again these are the best days of our lives, so lets just have fun and stop worryin about all this stupid drama, i <3 u and im always guna be here for ya, just call sometime and we'll hang out or w/e, i really do think you're a great friend and im happy to know ya... Happy New Year!!! (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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