.:I can't believe it's over:. (mickeyismodest) wrote, @ 2004-12-04 21:35:00

Current mood:	emotionally drained
Current music:	the postal service

and it'll be just like you were never gone
Ugh, I'm so tired right now. I just spent about two hours crying. There's only one person who can make me hurt so bad that I cry and cry until there's absolutely nothing left. My mother. I don't even know what to do anymore. Or if I even want to do anything anymore about our relationship..lack of relationship. My eyes hurt, and I just want to sleep.

But...I don't want this to be the end. Oh well...I think it really is. This isn't normal; it isn't supposed to be this way. I feel like I have to work at it to recieve her love. I don't know if it's me, or if it's her, us both. If you couldn't already tell, I don't like talking about this kind of thing. That's why I'm not too much with the details. It just feels like I'm drowning in my stupid, little need to have her love me.

I was supposed to go up and see Brian tonight, I think. But looks like that's not going to happen. I don't know what kind of company I would be. It probably would do me good to get out and be with people that aren't my mom, but...

I just want to sleep. I want to go to sleep, and wake up where everything's okay.

in_my_mind 2004-12-05 22:59 (link)

aww im sorry to hear that...My mom and I dont really get along either and she really bugs me, but our relationship prolly isnt nearly as bad as what you may have to deal with... Just hang in their is all i can say, no matter what shes your mother and wont let anything be the end to your relationship together...Its just a rocky time. If you need to talk and want to vent you can always IM me (Reply to this) (Thread)