April Fools Day!!!
HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!!!!!! lol... well, today didn't start off the best, but I'll get to that later. First I need to talk about what happened on Wednesday...
Wednesday I was with Ashley. I spent the night at her house, and we fixed my hair (now it's blonde!!!) and she cut it for me. It looks really good. My mom even bought me a new curling iron and straightener for babysitting for her. I was totally happy. Then Ash and I were just hanging out, watching T.V. and shit, and later on in the evening, I called Rob. I wanted some attention, but he couldn't come over. So I was sad, but at around 10, Ash and I went to bed. While we were laying in her parent's bed, she said for me to call Joe and just tell him that I needed him. We thought it would just be funny since he's been working 2 jobs during spring break. Well, I called, and he answered his cell, and I said that I just needed him for 10 minuets. He asked me where I was, and I told him, and he said he'd be over in 45 minuets. I started screaming for joy, and when I hung up, Ash and I were running around getting ready. I curled my hair, put on that "Dessert" shit by Jessica Simpson, and waited. We were sitting in the living room, and when he was a few minuets late, I was getting worried. Cuz sometimes he has this habit of not showing up or being busy. So Ash texted him and said that if he came that I'd talk Spanish to him while we were doing it, and he texted back that he wanted to reschedule. I was about to cry. I just wanted some attention. So before I did anything rash, I called him. He answered and I asked if he was coming, and he said he would be right there. I hung up the phone and was so happy.
When Ash and I were sitting on the sofa, we heard his car. He just opened the front door and came right in. It was hot. He came in and we all sat on the sofa, and we were just talking for a little bit, and he tried putting his hand up my shirt, but he was tickling me, and after a minute we all started taking off our clothes. I told Ash to go get the condomn off of the table, and when she left, Joe grabbed me and started kissing me. I was in my underwear, and he got off the couch and tried to take my panties off. He couldn't get them off fast enough, and I just laughed. He pulled me on the floor, and I told him that I wanted it really hard. So he started going, and he was kissing my neck and pounding me, and it was so good, but after like a minuet, he had to stop cuz he said he was cuming. But it was SO HARD and I had never felt that good before! He was on top of me for a while, and I orgasmed like twice, and it was good.
Then he mentioned that I never had it from behind. And I just told him no, that I'm not taking it up the ass, and he said he wouldn't, he'd put it in my vag. I sat there, naked on the floor in Ash's living room, just thinking about it. Mostly I was scared cuz I'm not experienced or anything. But he started tickling me, and kissing me, so I let him, and boy am I glad I did!!! It was good, but I don't think it was so good for him, cuz he only did it for a little while, then he turned me around. Ash started giving him a BJ, and his phone was ringing. It was his girlfriend, and thats when the guilt hit. So when he came back I said that I felt terrible, and he told me not to, but I started putting my clothes back on. He tried to take my panties away, but I got them and I just put them and my shirt on. But it was Ash's turn, so I was just kissing him, and he was trying to put his hands down my panties, but I didn't let him. And he goes, "Oh so you won't take off your clothes but you'll kiss me?" and so I said fine, and backed away from him, and he goes "Nooo, no!" and pulled me over to him. Now this is where this whole story gets confusing. While I was kissing him and Ashley was on top of him, he whispered in my ear, "I have a secret." I was getting nervous, but I said ok, and then he said, "You're better at this than Ashley." I didn't know what to say, so I just kept kissing him, and then he just told me to keep it a secret. WTF was that supposed to mean? Then after awhile, when he was putting his clothes on, I was sitting on the floor, and he called me beautiful. I freaked out and told him to shut up. He put on his clothes so that he could get his guitar for Ashley's birthday present. He told me I could go outside with him while he had a ciggarette. So I went out there, and just stood with him and talked a little bit. I wanted to tell him that he was not only the first guy I had sex with, but the first guy I ever really kissed. But I got scared, and I didn't. So we went back in the house, and he set up his guitar. I sat on the sofa and made a dumb mistake of taking off my sweatshirt that I had put on when I went outside. So he started playing us some songs, and that just made me want him more. So I didn't look at him. It was easier that way. But then he noticed my arm, and asked me what happened. It was a demanding voice, but I just said it was Ash's cats. He said it didn't look like a cat, but I just put my head down in shame, and then he shoved his arm in my face and pointed to a scar and said "This was from a 'dog'." He showed me a few more on his arms. I felt relieved. He told us that he would come over on Friday (today!!!! yay!!!) and play some more guitar. He was over for like 2 hours! He NEVER does that. It's always wam-bam-thankyou-maam. Plus, he had to get up in 3 hours and go to work again. It was good sex, but now I'm just confused. Does he like me? If he does, then does that mean he's going to break up with his girlfriend? I am just so confused, cuz I think I do like him, but I don't want to be hurt anymore. I'm done being hurt by others. g2g.... mom is home.
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