|Current mood:|| hopeful|
|Current music:||Feels Like Today- Rascall Flatts|
Oh me oh my. Again, last night... crazy stuff. Me and Pam hung out until like 10:30 and then at 11 I went and picked up Tony. We couldn't get ahold of Jeremy like we had planned to, so I started driving, and then Donna called, so we decided to meet up with her, Molly, and Jill at Kelly Club. It was pretty fun, Jordan and Kyle were there again along with Mike Gwidt. It was karaoke night and everyone was crazy. Since I had had 3 margaritas at El Tap earlier, and then at the bar I had about 3 or 4 drinks, Donna said that we could crash at her house since she would be out at Ted's. At around 12:30-1:00 me and Tony went back to her house and we played cards and Tony ate Donna's cereal. Tony took off his belt (this will come into play later) and I guess around 2 or so then we decided to go to sleep and we took some blankets and slept in Donna's room since her bed is much more comfortable than couches. We were asleep for maybe 45 minutes when Molly and Jill came back, all wasted. Jill and Donna were arguing at the bar and I had no clue what was going on, so Jill was using my phone for all this stuff, and then when Tony got up to go to the bathroom, Molly took his place in the bed. Tony went to sleep on the floor and eventually Molly felt bad or something so she kept trying to drag Tony into the bedroom again, and I guess she pulled so hard his pants fell off or something. She was yelling stuff like "Tony, get in bed with your bitch!!" and all this other crazy stuff. lol. Anyway's, eventually he came to bed again with me and we slept, I didn't necessarily sleep well, since for some reason I was super nervous.... probably because there is sexual tension or something, since it is so obvious we have something for each other. We just kinda leaned on each other all night again while we slept, not on purpose or anything, it was just whenever I woke up we were touching some how. Maybe it was on purpose, who knows. Instead of waking up at 6 like Tony had wanted to since he was going to go fishing, we ended up sleeping until noon, and then we woke up, woke Molly up so she could move her car. So then Molly of course was asking what we were doing all night (sleeping, nothing more or else you'd know because I would be gushing about it hardcore). Tony and I ended up going to McDonalds and then ate at my house and then we went back to his house and I went in for a little bit and then I went home and went to bed. Donna freaked out because she found his belt at her house and she was asking if we had sex in her bed and was wondering why he had taken his belt off. It was all kinds of crazy. But it was fun. It was very very fun. I like him so much. It is so not crazy. We are such good friends and I have this feeling that if anything ends up happening, it is going to be so good. All night, I think the reason that I did not sleep was because all I could think about was holding his hand. It was so weird, because I would wake up and our hands would be touching, and all I could think of was holding his hand. I never did, because I was too afraid, but the thing was, I was laying in bed with a guy I like and I did not even once think of sex. I didn't even think of kissing him or anything, although that would be immensely pleasurable. All I can think of is the first step. I don't want to move fast in this, which is different from when I was with Jeremiah. This makes me realize that what I had with Jeremiah might never have even been a crush, just somehow sexual. With Tony I really truly do like him, and I have this awesome pure relationship with him, and I don't want to mess that up. I think that is what is going to make everything end up so good. I have very high hopes, and I don't know if that is good, but I have a good feeling that everything is going to turn out really good.
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