Seth (madscientist) wrote, @ 2007-10-07 10:57:00

I was in a funny mood last night.
I wasn’t sad, depressed, angry, or anything like that. I think nostalgic might be the best description. Contemplative mixed in with a bit of self-analysis. That’s one thing that I love about having this journal. With a simple click of the mouse I can go back through the past four years of my life. I’ve made the majority of those entries private instead of deleting them outright. On nights like last night, I’m glad.

With no time for anything other than work lately, I haven’t had a chance to decompress. Honestly, my brain was just full. But even before that, it’s been a while since I’ve actually wrote without restraint. I miss that. Without being able to chuck out the random crap that makes its way into my head, things just build and add to the clutter. It just builds and builds, until I hit that breaking point and it all comes out in a massive, incoherent, jumbled up mess of words.

But, at the end of the day, my head was clear. I purged a lot of random crap from my head and got stuff off my chest. So, all in all, a good night.

absolutelyjessa 2007-10-07 13:44 (link)

I completely understand...and I do the exact same thing. I know that when I'm emotionally "purging" it often comes off as melodramatic/self-pitying/whatever, so I try to put a disclaimer down...because that's usually not what it feels like to me at all. I shouldn't really have to, but I do anyway 'cause it makes me feel better. Haha. For me, anyway, what it comes right down to is that I need a place to spill it all. And I like the validation of having people I'm close to be able to read it and respond. I'm absolutely NOT an intensely private person, so there's a part of me that feels relieved or comforted or something by the fact that whatever I was feeling is now out there and available for anyone (or at least whoever's on my friends list) to read. In some strange way, it makes me feel like I'm not carrying that burden by myself anymore. Aaaaand there's MY self-analysis for the day. Psh. In any case, the short version is....I understand that mood. Haha. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	madscientist 2007-10-09 21:59 (link)
	I'm generally a fairly private person. I've gotten better though. There was a time not too long ago when I couldn't stand letting ANYONE read ANYTHING I'd written. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

The Kingdom of God is at hand. Repent and believe the gospel. (Anonymous) 2008-02-14 02:53 (link)

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