Wrong B word. I think you were looking for "blundering". It's not that I think I don't know my stuff. It's that I'm terrified that, when things get stressful, I'm going to completely blank. I suck at being forced to think on me feet. I get anxious and start firing my mouth off before my brain can catch up. Not a good combination.
Nope, I definitely meant brilliant. Okay, so perhaps it's not going to be perfect. But you said it yourself--you know your stuff. If you get freaked, take a second and clear your mind of the anxiety. You're going to be just fine, Seth, regardless of the outcome.
stress passes, but the amazing work you're doing will continue to inspire others. keep it up, even and especially when you want nothing more than to completely quit.
thankfully this stress will pass soon, in a couple of days when i'm crucified in front of my committee during my qualification exam. anything for admittance into candidacy, that's my motto right now. i figure i can do anything for a few days, even if that is work every waking minute.
Ah, this is different. The thing that scares me most is there's one dude on my committee who intimidates the hell out of me. I've already been warned he's going to be a nightmare. He'll be the youngest guy on a committee of established PhDs... more than likely, he'll be set to prove he knows everything in front of the old guys... great.
stressed