|Current mood:|| optimistic|
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return"
I love that visa commercial that they play every five seconds for the Olympics. It's true, life does take courage, respect, talent, determination, etc...but they forgot two really important ones: it takes faith, and most of all, it takes love.
I see people walk down the halls and think that I have them all figured out. I know the type, I know the dress, I know them. I see people that I've known all my life, even my own friends, get into their cars and drive away at the end of the day and I have no idea where they are driving to, if they are going home to a stressful family life, or a job, or to go rest up for a night of drinking and smoking pot... I know next to nothing about the people I once thought myself to be so close to.
And they know nothing about me.
I hate the fact that first impressions are so important because I tend to royally screw up things that I'm not comfortable doing. I hate the fact that I set the precident for some relationships and now we can't get past that point, it would just be too weird. I hate the fact that I can't ressurect the past and that I can't promise that the future will be any better.
I went to the fashion show last night and it was really fun and exciting and all that...but I couldnt help but sit there and think, "what is the difference between me and the other kids up there showing off infront of the whole school without a care in the world?" I could sing and play piano like Alicia did, and I could dance as well as everybody else, so why don't I do it? And the answer is its just not me. I'm not easily recognized, I dont show off, but yet, I'm doing ok.
It's very rare that once somebody chooses to be my friend, that they decide that they don't want to be anymore. That's only happened twice before this year...but recently I don't know whats going on, but I'm no different than I used to be. And I have to say that it hurts. If there was something I did wrong, that would be different, I could fix that, but this is just a general dislike of my character, or my actions, or whatever.
So all I can do is love them . I'm still in love with the way things were and that love continues. I may put on a hard face but thats just me being me, I can't help it.
I watched Titanic and Moulin Rouge these past two weeks and it was Valentine's Day on tuesday and if I have ever been convicted of anything, it's that there is such a things a true love. They may just be movies, but that's where faith comes in. I believe that there is a Leonardo DiCaprio out there somewhere for me and everyone else if they chose to look for him. And I believe that I will love him "until my dying day." It does exist, I just know it. I'm trying to figure out what to write for my, "the truth about relationships between men and women" essay, and everything I feel, basically boils down to, you either chose to love the person for who they are, or you dont. It's a hard choice, and it's only meant to be made once, and you'll know who to make it for. "Love is like oxygen, love is a many splendid things...all you need is love."
I'm probably the only single person in the world who thinks Valentine's Day is a great holiday. I can't help it, I love love!
I don't need to be in a fashion show, I don't need to know everything about everyone, I don't need everything to stay the same...I don't need personal success to be the drive of my life, or popularity or complancency...my life is powered by love.
"Love, faith and hope, but the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:13
(Post a new comment)