jules (lostsomewhere) wrote, @ 2004-04-07 09:12:00

Current music:

this day forward - in the past...on the ground

paint us back to life
ive been completely and totally neglegent of my blurty. its horrible im well aware. but now im afraid no one reads it anymore now that i got a livejournal and no matter what anyone says i know theyre gonna read the lj bc its easier. blehhhlksdhosdhljgln

the lj is a little easier to manage in the customization department (<--dork)

yeah so i get an emo fetus...thanks jobo! :P

not much going on. i got boys night out tonight...im not nearly as excited as i should be. maybe cuz i know im not going with anyone i can really get into it with. i wish i was going with a hardcore bno fan, say sam or kyle?

i wanna be able to be up against the stage screaming every line to every song and look over at my friend next to me and know theyre doing the same thing and enjoying it and apreciating it just as much as i am. i had an extra ticket but jess bought it. i dont think she's ever heard them before.

im going to see my grandma today i think. i talked to her on the phone for the first time yesterday. she sounded incredibly angry at me. cold and distant and maybe i got a taste of my own medicine. if i didnt have the show tonight i would have forced myself to sleep over. i really want her to know how much i care and how badly i feel for how ive been acting. i want her to get better so badly. i want things to go back so i could maybe have a second chance even though i dont deserve it.

im going to go make her my macoroni and cheese now. i hope she like my recipe. maybe while im at it ill make extra for maris and bring it to her later!!!! damn i miss sam :(

i went to get my bike yesterday and it was so weird knowing that sam wasnt there and when i talked to maris that i wasnt asking for sam and it was just really strange and it got me thinking about all sorts of other things. i love my friends to death. i miss you alllll so much and i hate this unsettled feeling that you hate me as you probably should. i wish you werent away so i could try and talk to you. im sorry, if it means anything to you or you care.


gone~


now its time, time to fly

	Lili (Anonymous) 2004-04-08 20:36 (link)
	Dude harsh I <3 BNo and was standing there screaming my ass off .... Harsh harsh (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Lili (Anonymous) 2004-04-10 14:48 (link)
	hahahahah, your not a hardcore fan of bno, you did'nt know how bno was until like last week. Jules i feel you, me screaming the right words is so much better. heh (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Lili (Anonymous) 2004-04-10 16:07 (link)
	"you did'nt know who bno was until like last week." my bad. <3333 kyle (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)