Frank (loner83184) wrote, @ 2004-12-20 03:40:00

Broken Heart
Phew....

So much has happened to me since my last update. If I sit here and cover it all, along with all my feelings, I'll be here forever. So...

Damn, I don't know where to begin. School's out for the semester. My Automotive class ended on the greatest note possible. I finished my final. We had to hook our engine up to our engine stands, connect the distributor, make the wiring work... And that bitch had to run. We hooked it up to this small little machine that fed gas through the fuel injectors. When I went to start it up, I had to physically tap the injectors to get them working because that motor hadn't been run in a while. But man, did that baby run... It sputtered right off the bat but... It was so awesome. I couldn't help but cry out in triumph. I mean, I took that bitch apart, measured it all, and slapped it back together. And it worked... I can't describe how I was feeling at that moment. All I know is for that 2 minutes that engine was running... I was God.

Things at my jobs are going ok. I'm quitting the Hotel come January 5th. I just can't take it here anymore. Third shift just kicks my ass. The extra money isn't even worth the time I could be spending with my friends. So, I put my notice in. Things at VIOC are going alright. My last paycheck was somewhere around $500+. So... I'm happy.

Things with the clan are going alright. Now that I don't have school I'm going to make all efforts possible to see more of them. But overall, everyone is on good health.

And Jessica... She made a bad choice. Just to make a long, LONG ass story short, She's going out with Erik now... Her and I shared an intimate moment during our Hotel X-mas party, but I found out that she'd already been going out with Erik and didn't want to tell me for fear of hurting me. I felt so embarrassed by the whole situation.... But we're still talking. I don't know what else will happen with us but I'm not going to leave her side. If anything, I know that Erik's going to hurt her. Already he's putting small restrictions on her, as far as who she can talk to and about what. The bad thing is, she's weak enough to abide by his little laws so.... I've lost some respect for Jessica.

But I'm going to remain by her side. The only way I'll leave her is if she totally changes herself for Erik. She's already started... But we'll see how long that goes on.

Ok, no more time to update, I need to get back to work. More tomorrow.

Oh! And a shout-out goes to Dawn for staying up late wih me and talking on AIM for 5 hours!! I'm glad I met you and hope to talk to you more...

	(Anonymous) 2004-12-19 13:17 (link)
	Keep hanging in there! ~Aletha (Reply to this) (Thread)

(Anonymous) 2004-12-19 22:44 (link)

Awww, I feel so loved! Your not a half bad person to talk to so it was nothing to stay up that late. Congrats on your engine. And I know how you feel about wanting to be there for someone whose starting to change for someone else. Hang in there and you already are doing everything you can. She's gotta realize what she's doing to herself and you and even both of you together. Take it easy and one of these day I might just have my own journal up. lol ~Dawn~ (Reply to this) (Thread)