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wtf?
yeh w/e im done i fucking hate this life in this house.. i cant deal with it anymore.. ok well my mom said i couldnt go out today because ive been out everynight.. but wouldnt u be out every night if u were moving in like 1 week and u wanna stay with u friends as long as u can?? i would but then i got mad at my mom and told her i was gonna run away and she goes fine i dont care... so obvously if i left they wouldnt give a fuck... and then my sister gives me atttitude so i give it back and i get in trouble.. whenever she yells its always my fault but if i yell at her its still my FAULT! what the fuck i cant even thinka bout it any more because if i do i will serously kill someone ... im at the fucking end rit now and its looking like shit and no one would care if i jumped off the edge... i mean basically im a good kid and i get GREAT grades and its all for my parents its always been for my parents but this is the shit i getin return maybe i shouldnt try anymore.. maybe i should be a bad kid.. maybe i should just die.. make everyone's lives and everything fucking better wouldnt it ... or would u even realise im gone.. w/e FUCK U
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 | nick im sorry! 
(Anonymous)
2003-08-15 21:25
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nick im sry ur mom is being such a bitch! i just wanted to let u know that if u ever really did run away u can always come stay here. my mom would be like..okay whatever...and yeah im here if u need to talk or just get out of ur house. but whatever u do DONT hurt urself! cause even though they may not show it people would notive u were gone and theyed all miss u especially ur parents and ur sister and i know id miss u..hell im gonna miss u when u move not to mention if u were to actually do something crazy! but seriously dont hurt urself or 'go over the edge' cause its so final and cant be taken back...listen to 'adams song' by blink it says in it "the choice was mine i didnt think enough" and its true cause things can only get better...i used to think about killing myself soo many times and thats when i was 12 and younger and then i still think about it sometimes and it just always seems like the easy solution but really its just a stupid choice that shows weakness. but whoever put us on this world (god or whoever created it even if it was some scientist in a lab) they knew we could make it through all these obsticles which later ull look back on and be like wow i made it...whatever doesnt kill u makes u stronger nick and i totally believe in that and ive had soo many nervous brakedowns so i know how it feels. so yeah if u need to talk call me or something cause ill be here...ttyl luv ya nick!
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| hey...
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2003-08-16 17:06
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hey im not sure if the last comment i left for this entry worked cause its not showing up... so i figured i would just write the overall message of it. even if ppl dont show it they would miss u if u were gone and i know im going to miss u when u move so it would be terrible for u to make a bad decision by going over the edge and hurting urself..ive thought about it tons of times and it always seems like the easy choice when u dont think u can take life anymore but whoever or whatever put us on this 'world' knows that we can make it through anything and that its not the best decision its really one for the cowards. but its so final and once u do something like that u can never take it back and its finished forever but if u listen to 'adams song' by blink 182 it says "the choice was mine i didnt think enough"...and its true cause any obstacle thats set out for u to overcome in ur lifetime is just to make u a stronger person so after u make it even though it was hard and u almost didnt u can look back and be like wow i made it i fucking rule and all that good stuff...but bottom lines 1.are dont do anything crazy and hurt urself cause i know ill miss u and so will all of ur family and friends 2. what doesnt kill you only makes u stronger and 3. i know how being depressed and suicidal feels like since ive thought about it so many times and have had so many nervous brakedowns but im here if u need to talk so call me if u want to and ill ttyl. oh and anytime u need to get out of urhouse just to get out or if u want to run away u can always come here! well ill ttyl
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| hey nick!
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2003-08-16 17:19
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this is the third fucking time im typing this fucking comment cause theyre not showing up but its important so it needs to be done. dont do anything crazy and go over the edge and hurt urself in anyway cause its such a final decision and it cant be taken back and as much as they dont show it right now ur parents and friends would miss u terrible if u were gone. i know i would. hell im going to miss u when u fucking move i cant even imagine not having u on earth at all! i know what it feels like to be suicidal and depressed but jamie kept me going and i want u to know that if u need me ill be here to do the same for u..if u need to just get out of ur house and come over or run away u can always run here my door is always open and im always here if u need to talk. just dont hurt urself cause its so final and theres nothing u can do to take back ur decision once its done. if u listen to adams song by blink182 which is all about a suicidal kid it says, "the choice was mine i didnt think enough" and its true cause its really too final cause who knows what great things could happen after this whole challenge is over?..and believe me ive thought about it soo much and ive figured out that whoever put us on this earth knows that well be able to make it through these obsticles and that by making it through them well be stronger people...thats my favorite quote..what doesnt kill us makes us stronger...and its true and although it might seem like and easy way out and it may seem great its not cause its really the worst way to go and the weak way of doing things. and once u make it through all the shit, and u will make it through, ull be able to look back and say hey! i fucking did it! and ull be that much stronger because of it. and yeah..point is dont do anything crazy and im here if u need me just to talk or just a shoulder to lean on or cry on or if u need a house to run away to...but yeah whatever doesnt kill u makes u stonger and i definately believe in that. well...call me if u need to talk or something ttyl
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