Lhuv Kerapht (lhuvkerapht) wrote, @ 2003-06-04 15:47:00

Current mood:	gloomy
Current music:	beeps and boops and inane chatter

long hot summer ahead
I live in a house with two of my parents, and one of my siblings.

The four of us are going to Munich this weekend, and I hope to find myself there. If I don't find myself in Munich, maybe I'll have better luck in Vienna, or somewhere around Lake Geneva.

I think that if I were myself, I would hide out somewhere in the middle of Europe. I just don't feel like myself lately, maybe I ran away, and what everyone else sees is just "an empty shell of a Luthy."

In 1999, during the week after I took LSD for the first time, my friends called me "an empty shell of a Luthy," and that phrase has stuck with me, it appears. I haven't taken drugs for a long time, so I guess I can't attibute my feelings of emptiness to that. I suppose I should have to figure out what is causing such odd feelings before I go and talk about them (it makes people uncomfortable to be told when another is confused and estranged), but it's too late for that now.

I sure hope to find some meaning this weekend. Munich, here I come.

the germans call it Munchen. haha. silly germans.

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	shell of a luthy (Anonymous) 2003-06-04 20:35 (link)
	I hope you're enjoying Germany, and the surrounding wonderful-ness. It's not the same Rapid without you. Keep me updaed with your trip. I'll be here reading, even if I'm too busy to write back all the time. peace, love, and much respect. Josh (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: shell of a luthy lhuvkerapht 2003-06-05 06:19 (link)
	I get to drive to Munich this weekend! I don't just ahve to sit back and watch the road go by, with all the BMWs and Mercedes. I think it's cool that I get to drive rental cars; in the USA I still have two years to go before I am old enough to get a rental car. 23 (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)