Rebecca (lemonhead177) wrote, @ 2003-12-24 12:13:00

Current mood:	cold
Current music:	evanescence- my immortal

im always pretending to be happy, but inside im crying...... always crying
i lost my best friend last night. it was a funny thing to go through with my cousen watching. i didnt cry, but she saw the pain in my eyes. the car ride home was unbearable. i knew that my dad was looking at me thru the mirror, so i held back the tears. i felt nothing but the pain inside my body. not phisical pain, but emotionall pain. i have never felt it like this before. i felt it all thru my body. in my stomach, my fingers, my legs, my toes. i got home and went up to my room. i read thru my diary, of all the times i wrote about me and sasha going to the mountain, or me and sasha going to the movies and having so much fun. i stained the pages with all my tears.

i cried myself to sleep that night, and i woke up with fresh tears on my face. i had been crying in my sleep, without even knowing it.

dreams are wishes your heart makes when you are fast asleep.

	lalalalalalalalalalala devond 2003-12-28 02:40 (link)
	Im sorry about what I said but I had nothing to do with what Sasha did or thought about you. So yeah.... (Reply to this) (Thread)

	sry (Anonymous) 2003-12-31 21:18 (link)
	im sry i realli am im crying right now i was a jerk i shouldnt hve made u go thro that i should have been there 4 u-ur a great friend im sry-i wish i could have been (Reply to this) (Thread)