JimsGyrl (lawoman) wrote, @ 2003-09-08 15:41:00

Never Ever Again
Please someone help me. My hands are shaking and I can't breath. I really want to disappear.

He had a drink, two, well three, well more in a little bit, well alot for the rest of his life.

I KNEW THIS WOULD HURT I DIDN'T KNOW THAT IT WOULD KILL......ME.

I BLAME MYSELF I KNOW I AM THE ONE WHO COULD HAVE BEEN AROUND I'M THE ONLY ONE IN THE HOUSE RIGHT NOW WITH HIM I WAS SUPPOSSED TO STOP HIM AND I DIDN'T CUZ I WAS ASLEEEP ITS MY FAULT I RUINED EVERYONES LIFE I'M NOT KIDDING THIS IS NOT A JOKE IFEEL LIEK

I'M GOING BYE

pennylane80 2003-09-08 16:19 (link)

Amanda, It really isn't your fault. I feel the same way. I usually come home Sunday night. I should have been here today. I don't blame you, and I can't blame myself. It was HIS choice to take that drink. We can't change it now so there is no use in letting it keep you down. We can talk about it with him tomorrow. I'm taking him to get his pills now. I'll be home soon. Hang in there. I love you! - Kate (Reply to this) (Thread)

	anxiety_dilemma 2003-09-09 02:15 (link)
	hey there, I know I really can't offer much help. I don't really know the situation too well and it's really unfortunate but it's a really hard thing to do, to quit. You really shouldn't blame yourself for it. I really don't think that it was your fault based off of what I read. Anyways, I REALLY hope things get better. (Reply to this) (Thread)

Much Thanks lawoman 2003-09-09 04:38 (link)

Thank you. I'm feeling somewhat better at the moment...its quite easy for me to push bad feelings deep down and ignore them.... I'm the master of it. So right now I'm just being blissfully ignorant....it feels better that way. Your words mean soooooooooooooooooo much more to me then I think you could ever realize. I'm happy everyday that we "met". I hope you feel this way too. I'll try damn hard to keep you afloat as you do for me. With love and appreciation- amanda (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)