Mary (ladyoftheflame) wrote, @ 2003-09-22 14:47:00

Current mood:	listless
Current music:	Catch 22~ Guilty Pleasures

it's been a while.
yeah, so i haven't updated for a while... things haven't been going too hot. I've been really confused lately. I really think that i see things in black and white. There's never much gray area. I need things to be defined and i don't always realize that they won't always be that way.

i guess it's just kuz i wish everything could be that simple... but it can't always. And i really do hate it. I wish everything could be easily solved. I wish i could label everything as something and carefully store away to emerge later when i meet someone else of the same criteria, so i can label them as a "definite" too. But i can't, it's impossible. Not everything can be labeled, that's where the gray area comes into play. But i'm not very good at realizing that the gray does exist. And when i talk about labelling things, i don't mean "she is a prep." "he is a punk." I just mean... well, for example... let's say i have a person labelled. All that means is that i have them figured out. I can understand them. I guess knowing these things gives me some sense of control over myself and what i think/ feel.

I'd rather remain in my safe little world where everything is how i perceive it... also known as unreality. I'm comfortable there... i know what's going on. I don't ever need to second guess myself or be uncertain about anything...


...if only...

	MARY RULES! mymomcanfly 2003-09-24 19:28 (link)
	MARY ROCKS MAJOR SOCKS!!! sorry haven't commented in a while. neither have u. hop to it. ignore this next part if it doesnt work. i.e. if its not scrolling. MARY RULES!! peace and love skitch (Reply to this) (Thread)

Re: MARY RULES! ladyoftheflame 2003-09-24 19:41 (link)

haha... oh no! another html stunt! I have to learn me some of those... (improper english to rock clinton's socks). Alright justin, i'll comment on your if you comment on mine.. and you started it so i figure i may as well "hop to it." and thank you for the scrolling "mary rules." but i must object to the rocking major socks, you're mistaking me with you. haha. enjoy your day. mary (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)