Knives (knives777) wrote, @ 2003-09-23 01:55:00

Current mood:

confused

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Wow, I am really trying to update this, journal.
Its weird, The only one a try to update on a daily baseis is the one On live journal, well that one and the one on my message board.
I've got like 8. Ah fuck it. I don't really care.

I've been thinking about girls......alot.
I mean Not like in a sex way, but like in a romantic way.
Its really really weird.

Tara, Anna, Kim, Julie, Karin*, all girls that were good friends, then we went out, broke up, and Now I don't talk to them anymore.
FUCK.
I look at my currant female Friends.......One day I consider asking one of them out, then the feeling is gone, Then it comes back. At one point or another I have had Feelings for ALL of my Female Friends. I don't want to.
It never works out. Its hard to make new friends, I like the ones I have.
Fuck!
I wish it would just go away....fuck!
I hate this, I hate this need to be close to someone, Fuck yeah Im lonely.
I almost always feel alone, I try to distance myself from all my friends.......
FUCK, Forget it...
theres no point to this....

	yesnomaybe 2003-09-29 15:23 (link)
	your getting a bit stressed! im sure youre whole 'friendship breaking up' thing will sort itself out soon! everyone gets confused about their friends sometime! how old are you? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	knives777 2003-09-30 05:15 (link)
	Wow, I have a comment. yay! well it all kinda worked out, I guess. The "feelings" are gone, for the most part. but...... If I have a chance I might just take it.... no regrets. Im 18 btw. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	yesnomaybe 2003-10-01 13:36 (link)
	nothing wrong with that if you get a chance! you just have to make sure it doesnt fuck up your friendship! i know how you feel about the comment thing, ive been adding since about june and i only got a couple of comments, from about two months ago! when is your birthday? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	knives777 2003-10-02 02:24 (link)
	My B-day is on Jan. 31, 1985. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)