ashley (kirby_athena) wrote, @ 2003-10-20 14:37:00

Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	GOOD BYE, NICE RO KNOW YOU - INCUBUS

i'm fed up
i'm have a bad day again. it's bad enough that i feel bad about ruining somebody's relationship with there new girlfriend, but now i know who is the one who is talking trash about me and trying to get me jumped. this is the only entry where i will submi t a real persons name and i don't care you tells her. it's nicole thompson. she has been going around making up stuff that i didn't even say and spreading them around school and she was the one along with john, who was telling the entire school about what we did on last thursday at the Nauticus trip to Norfolk. i have a right micd to smack her. i so hate her. i feel bad. i ruined a certain somebody's relationship and i didn't mean to, but the thing is i didn't say anything. now these certain people hate me and now i feel like crap. my english teacher is a moron too. i know i'm in a special class but i don't want to have to feel like i'm really stupid. i'm a senior still learning where to put a period and what a noun is. this is so stupid. i can't trust anybody anymore. i don' have friends, i don't have a life, i don't have anything. WHY? becuase everyone thinks they can just walk all over me like a rug. and i'm sick of this. i'm tired of being talked about, i'm tired of people always calling my a lesb@^9 even though i'm not, i'm tired of nicole's mess. i'm... just fed up that's all. i don't want to be here and now i have to deal with my mom and her mouth of why i have detention. i don't think i can trust anybody anymore. ever ever ever!!! i don't know why people even bother with me. and i don't know why i bother with them. i guess i'm just meant to be by myself and unloved. that's it. everyone who doesn't like me, just stop with the petty crap and if you don't like me don't hang out with me. cause obviously i'm not good enough for some people. i try day after day to be a good person, i stuck up for nicole when all those girls wanted to fight her and this is the thanks i get. that was a waste of my time.

it's bad enough i had a horrible life in new york, you would think i could come down here and start life a new, but of course there has to be the dumb crowd who just gases up your head thinking that you have a real friend until they stab you in the back. i'm not meant to be here. do what you guys want to do from now on. you don't even have to call or bother with me anymore. i won't be in your way. may be i am meant to be alone and not have friends since i can't find any decent one no matter where i go. if i do have some real friends out there(i doubt it), please comment. let me know if i am wanted or am i here just for everyone amusement. have a nice life people. this is kirby_athena signing out. good bye and nice to know you.9

	navy_baby 2003-10-21 08:34 (link)
	everything will get better ashley. dont worry about all the biotches out there. (Reply to this) (Thread)

i love you ashley!!!!!!!!!! es_babe812 2003-10-21 08:45 (link)

your not a bad person, no matter what people say. there will always be "that crowd" that trys to BS you and make you think your cool to get what you want. you have plenty of friends and you are officialy no longer a lesbian... you officially BI!!!!!!!! hehe. but on the real, dont let anybody bring you down, you are who you are and if they dont like you they can go to hell. you really do have friends that care about you, and as far as that TRICK nicole.. woop her @$$.. she shouldnt be talking SHlT.... love you gurl.. keep ur head up... (Reply to this) (Thread)