maybe i should just take it at face value. no trying to want what i can't have when i already have something good anyway.
it's good enough, so why try and go back to what it was? if i had a car that no longer ran the same way it did before, would that be means to sell it and buy a brand new car? in some cases, i suppose, but what if the car still runs efficiently? perhaps it isn't as satisfying as i would like, and it gives me troubles at times, but the car is still there, it takes me places, and it still gets from point a to point b.
things are a little shaky.
on the other hand, i hate the prospect of forgoing a part of myself. i have to keep silent and take things the way they are, and force myself to accept these things otherwise i'm destined to crack.
augh. i don't know.
sorry for the cryptic entry.
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