Killed by an Angel
So its been a pretty hard week emotionally. The boy is going to california for an interview, i am very proud of him and I know he'll do great. But he also going to see 'the girl', which upsets me. He doesnt even seem to understand that I feel that way. He tells me that he has meant everything he has said, and i want to believe that with all my heart... but how can he say the things that he has, and say that he has mixed feelings? Kate is right, he's still the same person and he really isnt going to change. I Love him so much and it seems so unfair sometimes.... Ive heard a few times that you should always be with someone who loves you more than you love them, and maybe there is truth to that. I would do anything for him, and he is still insecure about my feelings and my reactions to him, and I dont know what to do. and I dont know if I should even try anymore, I want him to run after me...
Oh well, i have alot on my mind, my mother's dr. informed her the other day that she has elevated liver functions she's going for a catscan in a few weeks so she'll know the extent of the problem... Its so difficult to think of what could happen.
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