|Current mood:|| bouncy|
|Current music:||Nelly ~ Shake Ya Tailfeather|
Today was just one of those days where nothing goes right. I woke up this morning feeling really sick, but I knew that Sam was counting on me to be there since I told him I was leaving 2 weeks earlier than planned. I ate a light breakfast, knowing that it would soon be coming right back up and I headed to my dressing room by the beach so that I could get ready for the pictures we were going to be taking.
Yesterday my doctor called me and said that she arranged for me to see one of her former practicing partners today. I did that a couple hours ago and she gave me some really good news. Good enough to make me want to go out and celebrate, but with this good news came the strict advice that for the next couple of days I really take it easy and get a full 8 hours of sleep. I told her that I would try and do that since I don’t sleep well at nights.
After I saw her, went back and did more pictures. Sam and the other models noticed the complete 180 that my emotions and over all attitude had taken when we came back from lunch. I didn’t want to tell them why, I just told them I was feeling better than I did this morning and they should be happy that I still wasn’t in a sour mood.
I called and left a message on Joe’s answering machine telling him everything that had been going on. I didn’t know if my mom told his parents and word got to him yet. I had to call
a couple of times about 4 or 5 times so that I could get everything out. There was close to a months worth of stuff that I had to tell him. The last time I called his machine I simply said that I loved him, hoped he was doing well with whatever he was doing, wished him luck with Murmur and that if he ever saw me around town to say hi and I hung up. I was surprised that I was as strong as I was throughout the whole thing and when I got done, it felt like this huge weight was lifted off my shoulders, yet there was still this huge hole in my heart. –sighs some- That’s to be expected when you break up with someone you really love right?
The weekend that I get back from Florida, Shi wants to have a girls weekend. I have no problem with that. I have a lot to tell her and Kal. I told Andie most of it, but I still bad that I’ve been keeping this from them. They’re my
best friends sisters and I’ve kept this from them for about 2 weeks I think. I think it’s time I told them all I’ve been going through since Joe and I broke up at the beginning of August.
I’m going to go. I haven’t eaten since this morning and I think I smell steak -laughs-
Love to Andie, Kal and Shi…and I can’t forget my family, but they already know I love them -laughs-
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