Kasandora (kasandora) wrote, @ 2005-02-27 22:12:00

"We need to talk tomorrow."

The way you said that... the way you acted....

So this is it, isn't it.

This is gonna be The Talk That Ends It, isn't it.

Guess you've got it all worked out I suppose. I wonder who's gonna be the one to move out? I guess I could always go back to PA. I don't have any friends here anyway, except for the people I work with. In PA at least I have Autsy and Kris. Course they both have boyfriends so I'd be a fifth wheel, but there would still be girl's night out.

I guess I just keep screwing up. Too lazy, too self-absorbed. You'll probably say I'm too attached to my computer. All of these things are true, of course. What did you say before? "I love you but I can't keep living like this forever." It's hard to spend time cuddling with you when you're asleep when I'm awake. But then I guess it's my fault for staying up so late at night and then sleeping in very late into the morning. You force yourself to stay awake, in case we could spend some time together in the morning but I keep sleeping in so we can't.


oh shit i'm scared. i'm really really really really scared. and i can't stop crying because i'm so fucking terrified. i don't want to lose you but no matter what i do i can't change and i'm so scared. i think i've already lost you.

you didn't say "i love you too"