I really need to figure this all out somehow. But the problem is, I don't know how to deal with it. I don't WANT to deal with it, I just want to ignore it all. I'm horrible at facing my problems, but I'm super-good at running away. I've always been that way, though; I've always just ignored things and then when I get all depressed and shit I have trouble figuring out why. Well, duh Becky, if you had just faced stuff instead of ignoring it then you would very easily know what the trouble is
So now I know I need to face all of this.... but will I be able to???
