Kahlan (kahlan) wrote, @ 2008-11-15 23:35:00

The time is now
I'm packed, backed-up, photocopied, stored and dated. And I'm bugging out big time. Right now, I'm full of churny, squirmy fear and sadness and I can't remember if I felt like this the last time I went away. My composure took a massive dent earlier this afternoon when I couldn't find my passport and I proceeded to spend two hours tearing apart the house and having a nervous breakdown. I found it eventually, but it felt like A Sign. Because nobody seems to be happy around here about me doing this and the not-feeling-happy has seeped into my self-conscious. A Sign that this is not the right thing to do. I mean, I *know* it is, but parts of me are second-guessing every decision made up until this point. Fuck.

cassylee 2008-11-15 19:16 (link)

[heart] I think it's normal when you're about to set out on some huge change to have a time where you doubt your sanity and everything looks like it's trying to tell you to stay put & don't alter a thing. Does it help to know that I'm happy & excited for you and I think you're making an excellent choice (and not just because it gets you to my side of the Atlantic, since you'll still be a fucking long ways away ;-). (Reply to this) (Thread)

	drummergirl 2008-11-15 19:47 (link)
	I agree with Cassy, because she is wise. You are gonna be just fine, I think, though I understand how scary this must be right now. {{huggings}} for you and GOOD LUCK. You will have a blast, yes? xxx (Reply to this) (Thread)

	loreley 2008-11-15 20:16 (link)
	Just try to remember that you can always come back if it really doesn't make you happy, though I wish you that it will. <3 Safe journey, petal. Let us know when you get there. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cyndisision 2008-11-15 23:05 (link)
	What Cassy said. I hope the rest of your preparation for this trip goes well, and I wish you a great experience when you get there! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	bally 2008-11-16 04:39 (link)
	You are not dated; you are fresh and youthful. In short, Cassy said it best. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	callie_demeter 2008-11-16 08:09 (link)
	What Cassy said! I hope you have a wonderful time - it'll take a while for you to settle in, yes, but once that's done, you can get down to some serious enjoyment of a new country and all it has to offer. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cosmicavatar 2008-11-17 15:36 (link)
	Cassy speaks a'right. Best of luck and keep us updated, OK? (Reply to this) (Thread)