Be_Not_Be (k_ci_mac) wrote, @ 2003-08-10 04:33:00

I sit in my room
upon my bed,
Trying to get rid
of the things in my head.
I think of you
and of how you helped,
Helped heal this huge,
painful welp.
The one in my heart
that just won't go away,
Sometimes it feels
like it's here to stay.
As the tears run down my face
and wet my cheeks,
I think about
the past few weeks.
Of how we laughed,
joked, and played,
But now it's useless
and I feel betrayed.
You said that you'd wait
and I believed you,
I didn't think that this
was something you'd do.
I'm still hurt because
you lied to me,
This isn't how
it's supposed to be.
We're supposed to be cheerful
and carefree,
Not mad, upset
and unhappy.
I love you so much
you'll never even know
That what your'e doing
hurts me so.
This happens every time
so it's nothing new,
But why does it always
make me feel so blue?
I end this now in
confusion and cluelessness,
In hopes that some day
this'll be over with.

(I know that the last two phrases don't rhyme, but who really cares right now? I mean, I was never known for my poetic abilities. Well, at least I don't think so. I need to get some sleep. I'm getting dilerious. I have to wake up in 4 hours for church. I HATE INSOMNIA! And if it's not insomnia, then I HATE THINGS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD WHEN I WANT TO GET SOME GOSH DARN SLEEP!)