| Current mood: |  restless |
| Current music: | coldplay - "the scientist" |
black rose...
life is tough. i am tired of my job. i am tired of almost everything. me and my friend decided that we basically get paid for attempting suicide... cause our job sucks that bad. meanwhile, last night was interesting. for some odd reason i heard the song "the scientist" by coldplay on television. so i grabbed the cd and turned it on. it struck a nerve. i cried. i think i am overly emotional at this point in my life. hey, i am still getting over things and i am doing better than i was. so you have to give me some credit. sometimes i wish i knew i had someone that cared for me outside of my family. i wish i had some sort of stableness in relationships and what not. i mean i know some people care for me... but not really CARE for me... you know? if you don't it is all good. it is probably something i create in my head. sort of like this girl (mystibaby is her sn on the forum) on the dashboard confessional message boards wrote in a poem: "i don't want to be lonely, i just want to be alone." it is amazing how truthful that is sometimes... well i am sitting here and still listening to that bloody song for some odd reason... oh well... life goes on right?
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