It's Christmas Eve, and I feel as if the break is slipping away quite rapidly. Mostly I have been hanging out with my family, especially my brother who is ridiculously excited that I am home, but I have seen quite a bit of Josh lately as well, and have had my doses of Mollie in dashes, though she is changed, somehow, and she cries a lot but won't explain why. Kris, if you are reading this, you are an angel.
Yesterday we went out to my grandparents' to celebrate an early Christmas. My Aunt and her family were supposed to join us, but my cousin Noah has pnemonia, so they stayed in Ira, which is about 6 hours south of here and ridiculously small. Josh came out with us, though, and tolertated my grandfather's relative insanity quite well. I was a really nice day, and Josh and I even rode bikes for a bit. (Why am I suddenly drawn to physical activity?)
Last night I went to see Memoirs of a Geisha, and it was really amazing and beautiful. (Anne, I am so excited to read the book - by the way, while I'm singling you out, did you hear about the internship?) After the movie Johnathan drove me home, and we had a long talk about the people we are worried about. Ladies, he is such a wonderful person, and I mean that with the utmost sincerity.
Today my mom and I, taking a leaf from Anne's book, are going to see Pride and Prejudice together. We need the bonding time, to say the least. They took her off of the bipolar medicine which was supposed to fix everything, and I just don't know what to do with her mood swings, or her horrid self image. She can't see that she's done anything worthwhile in her entire life, and although you can talk to her for hours at a time and assure her that she IS worthwhile, you can tell that although she SAYS she feels better, she doesn't really believe you. The other night I sat and talked and cried with her until I couldn't take it and called Josh to see if her would get me out of the house. I love my mother more than anything, but my dad and my brother must be very strong to live with her emotions every day.
Oh my, on to a brighter note before I close! I love you and miss you all more with each day, and I have no idea what I am going to do with so many of you away for Jterm, though I am going to make sure that Kara and I have adventures, even if she does have to maintain the facade of a reasonable and responsible RA! Bwaha. I hope that you all have a very merry and blessed Christmas tomorrow.
All of my love,
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