|Current mood:|| crushed|
|Current music:||Michelle Branch "Goodbye To You"|
Yesterday I had to go to work again. Pretty lame.. At one point Jess and her mom came so I got to talk to her about stuff. At 11, I finally got to go home and call Kyle. He didnt pick up again so I kept calling back. One time I think someone even answered and hung up. I basicly consider it over. Theres no sense in trying to hold onto something that doesnt want to be held onto. I really thought things between us were good, but I guess not. Today after school I have to do something I dont really want to. Im going to walk to Kyle's, give him back his hoodie, and tell him Im not playing his games anymore. Even though I do really care for him more than I thought that I would, Im going to do it even though I might be broken hearted again. It doesnt matter though because Im basicly always broken hearted.
I had the worst Valentines of my life yesterday. It would have just been better not having one at all. Kyle promised he would be my Valentine and he couldnt even pick up a phone to say "Happy Valentine's Day." Thats pretty fucked up in my eyes. Its better to end things now before things get even more deep. I really thought he was different, but I guess I was wrong. I didnt see him as other guys, not ones that would dick you over, but now Im seeing a different side of him. I kinda wanted this to last a while, but now thats not likely.
...ITS HARD TO SAY I MISS YOU...
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