Jeff Timmons (jbtimmons) wrote, @ 2003-04-23 21:42:00

Current mood:	confused
Current music:	whatever movie's playing

What the hell just happened?
I'm on a plane...to Florida. I guess CJ and Krissy don't take after either of us when it comes to flying, because they're both out cold. I couldn't stay there any longer...I couldn't stand to be away from him for one more second. I called the doctor and asked if it waas okay, and hopped the first flight.

Everything was fine...we were sitting there talking, laughing...and then she said I looked like I needed a massage. I did. I said no at first, but she offered again, and I took it. It's been so long since I've been touched like that, and I closed my eyes...and I started to wonder what it would be like...to feel her lips against mine. I turned...and it took every bit of me not to kiss her...not to take her in my arms and just... *sighs* So I go to leave, and she stops me...and kissed me. I let her. Then I realized what I was doing...and I walked away. She followed and told me she loved me. How could she love me? She doesn't even know me.

So I told her I loved him. I told her there was nothing there, that I was just a man...a lonely man. And then I packed up my things and left. The look in her eyes ripped me apart. But yet, I can't help but feel happy that soon I'll be in his arms again.

*sighs when CJ starts crying and hits update, flipping the laptop closed*

	shellilynne 2003-04-23 21:56 (link)
	*sigh* (Reply to this) (Thread)

willa_whored 2003-04-27 02:10 (link)

I think that you should get rid of all of the negetive energy and people around you and move on and focus on only the positive. You're only human therefore you're going to make a few mistakes but all you can do is learn from them and do better next time. Your husband is so lucky and you two are lucky to have one another. You two have had a beautiful relationship from the things I've read here tonight and heard from other people. Please try and work it out and renew your vows so I can come and wear a pretty little dress! :-* (Reply to this) (Thread)

	jbtimmons 2003-04-27 02:33 (link)
	Thank you sweetie. I actually...I never considered renewing our vows. It will be a little while before that can happen, but that's a wonderful idea. And you'll definitely be invited. *chuckles* (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)