oOo Miss Jaded Kittie oOo (jadedkittie) wrote, @ 2003-09-14 22:00:00

Current mood:	confused
Current music:	MXPX - Sometimes You Have To Ask Yourself

Um...I just got called weird. I wont say who by, but normally my response to being called weird is to jump up & scream "WOO PUNKRAWK!" & do a dance or something. But um, now I find it unsettling...I dont know. Now my brain is really working itself. I always thought I was a little on the odd side but I never dubbed myself *WEIRD*
"Weird" is a term I apply to those kids in the Lunchroom who spend thier breaks playing Magic the Gathering & arguing about which chick on Star Trek is hotter. Y'know? Fuck. My head is swimming. Am I really weird? Like...*really* weird?! How weird am I? Jesus...HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON?!
WHY DIDN'T SOMEONE TELL ME THIS SOONER?! Goddamn...
Weird. I'm...weird. Shit. This is GAY! I dont want to be weird!!!!! I want to be unusual...but I dont want to be WEIRD!
This is most disturbing. Now I dont wanna go anywhere. Because I'll be the "weird" one. *sigh* Another Hermit month is creeping up on me. I can feeeeel it coming now. I'm going to be all self concious because I'm weird.
I guess...I dunno...I'm gonna have to ask people. One guy's opinion...but STILL FUCK HE SAID I WAS WEIRD! AND I DIDN'T LIKE IT!!! AND I DIDN'T HAVE A SMARTASS COMMENT!!!!!! What the HELL is going on?!
First off...why the HELL should I fucking care about what he thinks of me?! We hardly know each other first off...
PLENTY of people have called me weird & I never cared about it when THEY said it. So what makes this guy the exception?! WHY?! NYYAAAAAGGGHHHH
*ahem* Dos...I can just IGNORE him if I wanted to, it's not like we're married or anything. I can stop talking to him whenever I wanted & it wouldn't make a damned difference to either one of us, but I dont WANT to. Now I want to like change his mind & shit. Show him how un-weird I am. But I can't because I *am* unusual...I'm "unconventional", I am not "your typical ho". But WEIRD?! I dont even like the way it sounds in my head. Makes me wrinkle my nose up in disgust just THINKING about the fact that someone out there thinks I am weird & I care about it. How fucking unsettling. I'm not going to be able to sleep well tonight I know that. I'll be up all night thinking about how "weird" I am & drive myself insane before dawn.
Weird...me?! DAMNIT! NO!
First I get called GOTH, then I get called WEIRD! What the HELL is going on here?! You people PISS ME OFF!
STOP CALLING ME NASTY NAMES! I'M A FRAGILE DELICATE LITTLE FLOWER WHO WILL CRUMPLE INTO THE TINIEST PIECES IF THE WIND BLOWS ME THE WRONG WAY & YOU PEOPLE ARE FUCKIN WITH MY HEAD & THAT'S JUST NOT COOL!!!
gah
GAH!
I'm gonna GO now.
...:;~*ElizabetH*~;:...

	lol femme54 2003-09-16 02:52 (link)
	of course you are weird ...duh. you seriously thought you weren't? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: lol jadedkittie 2003-09-16 02:55 (link)
	you ARE ON!!!! pm me! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hmmm femme54 2003-09-16 13:41 (link)
	my mom says she wants to be reimbursed...when? that's what she says. she says you cant come over until you pay for it. not my words, hers. sorry, didnt get your message last night. got it now. :) so, call me or something we can hang out elsewhere or you can give cash lol i know it sounds shitty. whatever. later. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: hmmm jadedkittie 2003-09-16 20:17 (link)
	I see how it tis. *sigh* Well tell your Mom that I dont HAVE any money right now. I probably wont have money until Friday or Saturday. I *was* saving up for some Salvia. But I guess I just have to forget it now. Meh. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)