I miss you so good (jaded_soul213) wrote, @ 2006-06-12 18:11:00

Current mood:	pessimistic
Current music:	There for you-Fly Leaf

Your Sword Vs. My Dagger...
I am a fuck up. Rawr. I seriously seem to mess up everything that was once going right. Eh. I dunno. Today has kind of sucked for no appearant reason. I'm just not happy today. I'm being negative and pessimistic. I just want to go back in time and fix the mistakes I've made. I feel like I no longer have a best friend. I just mess up too much for her to love me. :[ I just don't know anymore.


Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you, cause I'm not there for you
Though I wish I could be
I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to...


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	burningsences 2006-06-12 21:35 (link)
	when people do drugs it excites the dopamines in their brain... it makes them happy,,, well another thing that makes the dopamines replenish themselves is physical work... get a job, work on a car, excercize, do SOMETHING cus ur life isnt gonna get any better just sitting around complaining (Reply to this) (Thread)

	jaded_soul213 2006-06-13 04:19 (link)
	Good call on that one. I totally agree. I actually hate complaining, but I was just being really negative at the time when I posted this. I'm all good now though. Umm...call me sometime. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	queenofrazors 2006-06-14 15:47 (link)
	You are losing me..... (Reply to this) (Thread)

	jaded_soul213 2006-06-14 15:50 (link)
	Yea..to Bri and Scott. I am trying baby. I am. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

burningsences 2006-06-14 20:40 (link)

you have no sence of reality... cus u dont talk to someone or u fight with someone then u either work thru it and get friends or u dont... you guys live in this little world where everything is bad and like,.... i dunno i work and havea car and am graduating and i can see where your at and lifes too short to take seriously.... either talk to her and hang out and not lose her or make new friends... its not the end of the world (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jaded_soul213 2006-06-14 20:48 (link)
	Did you mean that towards me or Lauren? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

queenofrazors 2006-06-15 17:37 (link)

I believe we have a sharper sense of reality than you do. Sorry, hun, but you only see the words between me and Ash. You have no intention of seeing any deeper. I'm lost. In life, I am more than lost. I have no idea whats happening to me, nor do I wish to reverse it at this moment. Life is too short to do anything, really. Regret is something that you dont want to have. Because that, is useless. It gets you no where. Now, taking things seriously, is something you want to do. Because blowing everything off leaves you hanging and it makes no internal connections between you or anyone else. Think about that. Whether you meant this for me or Ash, my response covers both of our feelings towards this. And I know this without even speaking to Ash about it. Because I have that internal connection with her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)