Jaded (jaded_reality) wrote, @ 2003-11-05 23:44:00

Current mood:	crushed
Current music:	A rush of blood to the head--Coldplay

depressed....
It feels like I haven't written in here forever. It's just I feel so removed from everything. I'm depressed.... really depressed. I hate my life more than anything. Everyday, the more I think about it, the more I realize that my life is shit. It feels as if the whole world had turned against me, and is trying to make my life as brutally painful as possible. Sadly it's probably my fault. My fault for being fat, my fault for being a bad daughter, my fault for being a bad friend, my fault for being stupid. My fault. My fault. My fault.

I wish I could make it all disappear, or that I myself could just disappear. I've been thinking a lot about death. Entertaining it maybe? I just hate being this fake and happy person on the outside, all jokes and smiles, while on the inside I ache. I'm tired. I'm just so bloody tired.

And that's what is new in my life.
No one said it was pretty.

~Kassenia Jade~

	thecitygray 2003-11-06 10:38 (link)
	oh, honey. i have been exactly there. so many of us have. and i know it will sound hollow now, but you just have to keep even an inkling of faith that it gets better. <3 (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: jaded_reality 2003-11-08 17:18 (link)
	Thank you for the words of encouragement.... I know that eventually things do begin to look up. It's just hard to be positive sometimes when you are feeling down about everything. But things are getting better now, and hopefully it will stay that way. Take care.... ~Kassenia Jade~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	Re: Don't be sad little one :) jaded_reality 2003-11-08 17:15 (link)
	Thank you babe, I've been feeling a bit better lately. And I'm sorry I have not written to you lately, but I definately will!! I miss you and hearing about everything that is going on in your life!! Take care.... ~Kassenia Jade~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)