Joel R. Madden (j__madden) wrote, @ 2003-06-19 18:50:00

So.. last night turned out a lot differently than I thought it was gonna be. At first I was just pissed at Benj for actin' all God-like and saying somethin' to me that was way outta line. Turned out that the problem ran a lot deeper than Benj just bein' an ass. So. He vented to me, got everythin' off his chest..

Fuck, I couldn't even see it.

You know, I really haven't been that great of a brother. Here I thought the reason for me and Benj fallin' apart is because he didn't wanna share what was going on with him. But the real problem was me. Me never bein' here when he wanted to vent or he needed help or advice or whatever. I don't know if it's just bad timing or if I really do suck at bein' a brother to him. Either way I really felt like a piece of shit after everything he told me. If you've ever wanted to just clap her hands and put everythin' back together, that's how I felt. I know it's not gonna be easy to get me and Benj back to the way we were. I gotta start payin' attention and not letting everything take over and get in the way of him and me.

Not that that's really gonna fix everything. There's so much damage here that it's gonna take a lot of work to fix. I'm not even gonna pretend to know what every problem is or how to fix them, because I don't. Benj may have vented to me and got a lot off his chest last night, but I'm pretty sure that ain't the only thing that's been buggin' him about me. I'm gonna take care of it though.. I am.. I don't like lettin' my brother down like that.

	mandy_moore 2003-06-20 23:28 (link)
	JOEL JOEL JOEL CALL ME DMSLKFJSLDKMAPIEUA (Reply to this) (Thread)

	faith_lauren 2003-06-22 02:35 (link)
	*giggles and waves her fingers happily at Joel* (Reply to this) (Thread)

JOEL, YOU ARE SO DEAD __benji__ 2003-06-22 06:33 (link)

I care for you, it's kind of magical it just takes two. To share with you, I'd like to show you by the little things I do. It warms my heart, to think that you might feel like sharing too. That's what it's all about because I care for you. It isn't so hard, all you have to do is try, Now you make the first move, you'll see good things usually multiply. Somehow it all works no it's really not so rare. Give a little here, give a little there no it doesn't take much to show you care I care for you, it's kind of magical it just takes two. To share with you, I'd like to show you by the little things I do. It warms my heart, to think that you might feel like sharing too. That's what it's all about because I care for you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: JOEL, YOU ARE SO DEAD benjaminmadden 2003-06-22 14:44 (link)
	Who tha fuck are you? o_O (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: JOEL, YOU ARE SO DEAD __benji__ 2003-06-22 21:47 (link)

I maintain you It is takes type of magic it only two. In order to divide with you I would like to show you through the little things, that I make. It warms my heart To think that you would be allowed to feel like parts also. That is, what it is approximate all Because I maintain you. It is not so hard Attempt is everyone that you must make Now you make the first movement They will see that good things usually multiply. Somehow it is all work no it really not so rare. Give a few here Give a few there No it does not take is concerned much to show you I maintain you It is takes type of magic it only two. In order to divide with you I would like to show you through the little things, that I make. It warms my heart To think that you would be allowed to feel like parts also. % (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: JOEL, YOU ARE SO DEAD __benji__ 2003-06-22 21:48 (link)
	I am one who cARES. I AM BENJI, AND I CARE! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	mandy_moore 2003-06-26 18:38 (link)
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