Well, it's been over a month since I last wrote... it's just been so busy with school and work and Brandon. I figured today would be a good day to start writing again though. I have some family over right now, and Brandon was supposed to come over too but then he called this morning because he forgot he had to go hang out with his cousins.
Things haven't gone as peachy as I thought they would with Brandon... but we're still working on it. I thought that because he got saved that we'd have this strong relationship built on God but it's hard, it really is. Neither of us are trying as hard as we should be and I'm always contemplating whether or not to break up with him. It's not because I don't like him (I LOVE HIM), it's because I'm getting farther and farther away from God. But hopefully with the new year I will be able to stay even stronger and set limitations for myself. I need to figure out a way to get our relationship back on track.
Let's see. I'm going to make some New Years resolutions. It's a bit late but late is better than never, right?
1.) I'm going to read the bible everyday. I will make time no matter what's going on or who I'm with.
2.) Brandon and I will read the bible every time we are together. No matter what we're doing or who we're with.
3.) I'm going to put God first in everything that I do, I'm going to think the way God would think, and do what He would do.
4.) I'm going to make Christian friends.
5.) I'm going to be more responsible, and do things as if I'm doing them for God.
6.) I'm going to try harder in school, and do my best.
7.) I'm going to save money for a car.
8.) Me and Brandon are going to start praying together.
9.) I'm going to go to church every Saturday and Wednesday.
10.) I'm going to help my mom more often around the house.
11.) I'm going to only listen to and watch things that are wholesome or glorify God.
I'm going to go now and read the Bible because I need it... I really do. I never have time to read it anymore and right now I'm doing nothing so I can't think of anything better to do. Besides, I'm really upset at Brandon about not being here... and I need God to help me let go of those feelings and I need God to speak to me and help me to know what to do about our relationship and about my life in general.
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