Sarah (hip_scar) wrote, @ 2003-08-05 13:00:00

I don't know if this really has anything to do with my surgery. I think it's just me personally. I've been really depressed the last couple weeks. I've been sort of achy all over. It's been impossible for me to get on all of the financial hassles. People are rejecting this and charging for that and all kinds of things that are all attempts to rip me off, and I just don't have the heart or energy to fend these vultures off.

I haven't been able to find any source of income, and my energy has been totally nonexistent. I think a lot of this is due to the fact that I'm very much not looking forward to the coming school year. It's turned from dread to near panic, actually. I just don't want to go. I want my MA, but I don't want to go back there. So I'm torn.

This weekend we're going to go out on a double date type thing with my good friend and her boyfriend though, so that should perk me up. I have really good friends. I've just been reclusive and unresponsive to them lately. I'm really, really tired of feeling weak and broken and not fully functional. I'm whiny and sad and hating myself for not sucking it up.

	Chin Up lobo21 2003-08-17 01:38 (link)
	Well I don't know one person that can suck it up and keep their chin up all of the time. Everyone is entitled to curl up and hide away sometime. You more so than others with all you've had to deal with. I'm glad you've had a chance to get out for some fun. Financial pressure can sure suck the life out of living. Hang in there. (Reply to this) (Thread)